cecilia

it's all fated..

2011-06-13T18:13:00.002+08:00

in Toys 'R' Us

it's been really long since i updated my blog...
the last post was on March.. wow..
have been busy since then..
rushing assignments.. day and night..
my last semester..
and now, i treasure it alot..

doing my internship right now..
in an event company..
working is indeed tiring..
no wonder people always say study is better than work.. =)

today when i was in the car on the way coming to work,
i tot of what my group and i did when we were rushing for the second last assignment..
it was an IT subject...
it was really really tough..
but it brought back lots of sweet memories..
whole house full of people;
stay up to do work;
slept for few hours only in a day;
experienced flood together;
talking to each other without brushing teeth;
cook for ourselves;
stay over in friend's house for a few days..
just because of ONE assignment..
haha.. fun and tiring..
and the outcome was satisfying..
with checking and checking non-stop..

i wont be going back to the same college i suppose..
even if i do, i wont be meeting the same awesome people again...
i am so lucky to meet them..
we went through alot of ups and downs,
and we also made it through, worked things out..
together, we made it.. =)

it is all fated.. to meet you guys..
the story always begins with, i almost gone for another subject or another college..
but end up..
here we were, the college we might not like it as much,
but has given us the precious memories in each of our lives..
and i am thankful for it... =)

ps: i actually had a pending post to update.. but nah.. not gonna post it up as it is actually the earlier ver of this post.. =p

update + note to self

2011-03-14T18:14:00.000+08:00

like seriously, this month is definitely a killer..
i blame on my time management and at the same time, the workload for sure contributed a lot that made me said so..
look at the planner.. everyday we have something due.. sometimes more..
i dunno how am I able to handle this..
just handed in one of the toughest(i suppose?) assignment..
and actually i am quite satisfied with the outcome.. sleepless nights and non stop touching ups..
ahh.. killing me to the max..and it seriously made me cranky for awhile..
sorry baby, cuz i sorta release my stress on u.. =(
actually, flash is fun when u get to move ur object..
but it is pretty annoying when u failed again and again..
well, even though i m kinda happy with the outcome,
but that doesnt mean that im the best of all..
yeap.. shouldnt have such thinking.. should always bear in mind that there are always better people out there..
you dunno/dun see, doesnt mean that they are not exist...

last few days were really bad days for me...
house connection was having some problem..
and it made me cant do my assignment..
crappy and only dear know it..
he always wants to be there..
and whatever he has done for me,
i feel so bad and touched...
thanks dear..really...

gotta stay strong for the whole month and the next month!
and im done with the last semester..
and im officially grown up a little..
seriously..
the outcome is always depending on the amount of effort you put in...
i learn it every semester..
and im slowly.. making it work..
i know.. i can do it...

update..

2011-02-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

it's the 6th study week of semester 6,
well, time flies right?
ALOT of things happened in the past few weeks, definitely..
something new i had experienced..
selling flowers.. =)
it was... fun and not fun in a way..
fun when i was at the roadside waving to every car passed by..
not fun when i know i did not hit the target.. =p
but well..
thats life?
learn from it..
because life aint easy after all..
glad to know new friends as well.. =)

assignments starting to due...
ahh.. i have started one but there's lot more..
need some guidance tho..
i realize life is about fun and not fun..
just like all my assignments..
fun, when i know how to do it..
not fun when the touching up part i realize there's so much of mistakes..
woo..
alright, cut the crap.. no assignment ranting today.. =)

stomach a little uneasy for more than a week..
and today went for doctor,
it's " enterogastritis"? (肠胃炎）
but of course, very minor still..
so no big deal..
but i lose my appetite for so long!
so not me..=.=..
so dear! bring me for some good food when i recover kie! hehehe...

ok lar.. i updated my blog.. what about you? =P

2 years!! =)

2011-01-31T01:06:00.001+08:00

280109

thats when we started..

last year, we celebrated on 29th January, and this year... same! hehe

due to some minor problem, we didnt get to celebrate our anniversary on the exact date,

but nvm..

date doesnt matter, what matters is, you are with me.. =)

yesterday was really a great day..

seriously..

we reached the destination successfully and safely,

with the help of ~~lousy~~ google map...

even though had some minor minor argument, but nope, no big deal! ehehe..

and we tried out a completely different meal than usual with "not so" expensive price..

kinda like that restaurant.. the name is Laziz..

they serve middle eastern cuisine, which is abit extraordinary in Malaysia..

something different..

it was a funny experience also, as we didnt know the way of eating middle eastern cuisine,

so we used our hand as well besides the utensil..=X

didnt take much photos though..

cuz we are both camera shy XDD

turkish coffee, the taste was so strong and i didn't know.. embarrassed experience XD

Dear eating!


sorry! only rmb to take photo after i finished the food.. =S

thennn, we went to pyramid..

and it was SOOOOO packed..

even getting the parking ticket took us around 10 min of queuing i think..

and we were SO lucky!

after we got into the parking lot successfully,

just the first round we found a parking slot.. whee

usually it would be a really hard time to get the parking,

but this time its so easy.. haha

probably cuz he used the "illegal" way and we actually overshot and went straight to the exit,

but luckily there was no car coming, we get to reverse and tada,

a parking slot awaiting!! =D

and its near to the lift as well as the exit! haha..

perfect spot..

driving driving~! traffic was slow..

cute smile isnt it? so adorable!!! <3

and the luck didnt just stop there..

because as we walked around pyramid aimlessly..

we saw a shop was having sales..

then dear got himself a pair of shades with just rm100!!!

it was some clearance stock promotion lar.. so the prices all gone down dam alot..

but the sunglasses look really nice though.. =)

wear it when u drive car alright?

den at night, we went earlier to have our dinner..

same thing.. we didnt really have to wait very long for the food to be served..

hehe..

that place usually need to wait for quite long.. whee..

right timing isnt it?

i will just conclude that yesterday was a really great day..

to have you..

it wouldn't be as great if it wasn't you to be with me..

thanks for walking with me in this two years..

your support, makes me feel loved..

your love, makes me feel secured..

and you, make me fall in love with you again and again.. =)

#1 note to self...

2011-01-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really don't dare to say that i am grown up..
not that i don't admit that i am actually a young adult now..
it's just that, i kinda doubt myself..
true that, i actually cannot really accept that i am entering 20 this year..
i am not prepared.. mentally..

being a 20 year old girl, i actually hold more responsibilities than i used to..
i cannot only think about myself..
i should learn how to be balance..
but i always screw up..
i really don't know how..

it's sometimes very disturbing to myself when i realize that i am so bad in handling situation..
mainly because, i really do care / think too much..
i care about how people think about me, and i think too much about what will happen of whatever i do..
i am not any great person.. being me, i actually don't quite like it..
i feel that i am doing very badly as a person..

this year, is a year that i should make changes over myself..
but i dunno start from where and how..
perhaps i am giving myself excuses..
but i do seeking for changes in me..
i am trying..
trying to be better.. tell me if i am not..
i wouldn't know if i wasn't told..

I tend to keep my feelings to myself..
because I'm afraid that people might dislike it..
but it is rather hard to please everyone..

at the end, i will be the one ranting why is life so hard.. lol..

i forgot what i wanted to write..
but what is on my mind now is that,
life ain't easy anyway..
so just do what i can do..and what i feel like doing..
so that i will have no regret in life..

and the next thing is... hmm..
omg i forgot..
let me think let me think....

........5 minutes gone............

argh.. i couldn't recall.. T_T
OH i think i know what i was thinking already..
hmm try not to think so much because actually, i am not so important..
people actually don't care what i did..
i mean like, it is not that what i did can influence oneself very much..
so yeah..
shouldn't always imagine that im so important..
again, it is not that i am "perasan", it's just that, im thinking too much..
will try to control that.. i mean will TRY.. =)

guess i should start writing more post like this..
as the note to self so that i know how far i have gone to and how much i have or have not grown.. =)

what?! it's 2011 already?!

2011-01-01T23:25:00.003+08:00

time flies.. it really does fly.. very fast without you knowing...

im soon, gotta call myself a 20 year old young adult..

20 years old?! it used to seem so far to me but now, here i am..

i dun feel like i am 20 years old.. not at all..

my mindset, my action, everything.. only.. my face..=S

oh well,

many people already set their resolutions already,

but i wont set myself any because,

it hurts when i dont get to achieve them..

at least to myself..

so yeah,

just gonna try and try to be better...

there's not much of things i can do right?

i went KL with dear on Monday (27/12/2010) and Thursday (30/12/2010)..

we had learnt a new road.. to Tropicana City.. on Monday..

and the way to Poco Homemade on Thursday..

it was really fun and the satisfaction really strike us when we found the places..

thanks to mel's boy the ss2 gps and google map.. =)

Poco Homemade.. i have been wanting to go there for months..

tada..

there he granted my wish.. =)

i like the place alot..

very cozy..

even he likes it too.. =)

the food was good..

not too many options because all only one person's cooking i guess?

the molten lava cake i had is awesome as well... as least it tastes nice IMO..

it is definitely not easy to realize this little shop if you did not look through them SLOWLY..

and ahem, i look FAT..

Daniel Lim! hehehe...

oh i love the cake!! i am going back to try out all the desserts!! i will! =D

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i like spending time with him..

it never gets enough..

time with him passes even faster.. =(

i really wonder why also...

why holiday passes so fast and classes end so slow?

im emo because classes starting soon..

and i am totally clueless about what i wanna blog..

i have so much to say but i have so little words..

and my thoughts arent complete..

things break into pieces once they happened and i am lazy to puzzle them up.. =p

so i am just blogging things i feel like telling.. =)

oh i have been telling him i want to try making bags and purses..

like this -


Pretty right? =)

i really do wanna try!

but its not easy to get those materials and i m still looking for them...

i really hope i will find suitable fabric and start doing it one day.. =D

bye 2010! i will miss you.. =]

little update

2010-12-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

results' out..
the grades arent bad..
but i am not really satisfied..
i mean, it's kinda relieved that the CGPA of mine was not affected much,
but, i just don't like that particular alphabet.. THAT ONE.. haih..

Kiasu right? lol, yea i admit, i actually am.. =(
kinda pathetic indeed..
it's like, no one even want to compete with me,
i am never aware of my limitations and compare myself with others,
in fact, i can never be better than them..
i knew that, but why would i keep repeating the same thing? sigh
i am fine, really am..
just ranting.. =p
trying to be less kiasu as possible.. hoho.. TRYING okay?
not easy..

oh i found a job that i really want to work..
but ARGH... they are giving KWSP and socso,
good right? i know..
but i can't work for job that has those two benefits..
i am having loan that strictly not allowing me to work..
if they know, poof! loan gone!
so yeah.. gotta sacrifice.. =)

oh well...
next sem, toughest i would say, exclude internship of course, that would be part of life and part of college..
for the Diploma itself, last sem to study in college will be the toughest, TRUST me,
don't trust others.. lol..
seeing the subjects that haven't yet taken is scaring me already..
and, somehow i am blur with what i should take for my Degree..
i have lots of plans, but they seem unrealistic..
hmm..
i should really think through it isnt it?

oh by the way,
today, really a random thought,
i thought about last time, roughly 7,8 years ago,
one of the Chinese channel of Astro did show some anime
and yah! i watched hahaha
you know i never remembered that i used to watch anime before except for the detective conan..
and today i recalled! hahaha
those anime were really nice!!
Fancy Lala is one of those!!
the only one i can remember..
and thanks to Su Wern,
she helped me find the title..
i am in the progress of finding as many of them as i can..

i feel so happy when i remembered..
and Rachel was the one who share the same interest with me..
hahah..
been through alot of discussions and singing sessions in CLASS.. hahaha
it was great memories of mine.. hehe

ahh..
it's half of the holiday already!!!
can time pass a little slower?
i know i know, holiday is boring right?
but to me it is certainly not.. hehe..
AND!
you know what, starting from the year of 2011,
my age is going to begin with number 2 already!!! gosh..
cannot accept it..
i am still so childish!! =(
pfft..
not gonna think not gonna think..
i am just going to enjoy the remaining holidays to the maxi maxy..

everyone please do too!
=)

signing off..

holiday... work...

2010-12-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

its the fifth day of holiday..
time passes kinda fast eh?
i think i am the ONLY person that would claim that holiday is never boring for me..
it never failed to make me feel happy during holiday..
i like staying at home and do nothing...

but i want to get a job also... need money... =(..
dun feel like doing promoter job...
i hate hard selling.. its extremely annoying... pfft..
still looking for job.. but what can i do in just one month time?

oh i was so unlucky that i straight fell sick on the first day of holiday..
however i recovered after a few days..
almost gone for doc, but sister was too lazy to bring me so eventually, i saved money..lol...

ahh i have been craving for tau fu fa for more than 2 weeks!! =((
i am not happy.. every time want to buy also epic fail..
even today i wanted to eat laksa also the stall was closed... ahhh..
i wan tau fu fa!!! T_T gotta buy it tmr!! must... if not i will be dam emo.. for sure...

haven seen him for very long it seems.. i dun like it.. =(

just a random post to keep my blog alive..

you are the best i could ever ask for

2010-11-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

this post might be really really cheesy, but i think i have to write it out..

as a memory for the future, a thankful and grateful moment for now..

in the year of 2008, i got to know him..

in the year of 2009, we got together,

in the year of 2010, we gone through quite a lot of hardships, and yes, we are still counting and working hard for the future..

we wouldn't be, if he didn't hold me tight..

we wouldn't be, if he just gave up when i wanted to..

we wouldn't be, if he didn't bear with me and my really-bad-temper-only-to-him...

we wouldn't be, if he didn't love me as much as he did when we just started and still does now..

i am not a good gf.. i really am not...

i am superb hot tempered especially to him..fussy about every single thing..

i am demanding..

i... am just bad..

but he never scold me.. sometimes i wish he does...

he takes everything to himself, and all he does, is apologize..

what more can i ask from him??

2008,

he was

a friend that called me because i was sad..

a friend that talked to me for 2 hours even we didn't meet in person before..

a friend that called me almost everyday just to make sure i am happy..

a friend that talked to me in mandarin even though he was so not use to it..

a friend that didn't mind spending credits on a friend whom never met before..

2009 up till now...

he is

a bf that never scold me..

a bf that give whatever i want as long as he could make it...

a bf that put me as his priority..

a bf that tries to be romantic even though he was not and now still not..=p

a bf that tells me everything.. everything..

a bf that supports me even though sometimes i am not so right..

a bf that love me more than himself...

and the list goes on and on........

so what more can i ask for?

if come to think of it...i would want him to be..

a little more sensitive perhaps? i think this is something every gf wish for.. haha

don't treat me SO good also? because i will be so use to it, and be even more demanding..

argue with me when he thinks he is right? because i think he deserves to be heard and not just me..

think more for himself.. and voice it out.. i might get angry, but try explain to me.. and i will know i am wrong..

take the risk lar, u have no choice.. =p

look at the calendar, its almost 1 year and 10 months..

i think, we might not gone through the most difficult hardship,

but we definitely gone through a lot...

you gone through even more...by bearing up with me...

i know, there will be even more problems we have to face..

and definitely not easy..

but i know, you will not let me walk alone...

wake me up when nov ends...

2010-11-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

the title is not relevant, simply nie hahaha...

oh today was the last day for sem 5, had some fun with classmates and not forgetting the lunch with lecturer after class.. LOL..

someone is calling me for update..
padahal he himself never updated his blog.. CHEH..

i am officially done with semester FIVE!

time flies.. everyone knows...

this semester.. was a real hectic ones..

and i never knew many things can actually happen in four months time, seriously..

technically, was not the whole four months though..

as a conclusion, things happened real fast in this semester and none of us get to control it..

haha.. what a semester.. o.o..

but i think as everyone would say, people learn in every semester..

yup i did too..

and i am glad that, things are now back to normal as last time.. as in really last time.. =)..

OH! went bukit tinggi for some dessert that day (Saturday 1113)..

sort of like planned already one because i have been telling him that i want to go and try! hehe

so, we went~

the content is not bad, but the mistake the shop done is that, they did not laminate the menu, they just started the business not long, but the menu looks dam old already..

i ordered something called heart in greed(not sure).. mix fruits in mango sago soup SOMETHING like that, i don't remember what was the description, it would be a good choice for those who like fruits, they have kiwi, watermelon, mango, apple, nata de coco and cincau jelly.. very filling.. lol

OH i like this!! this was his.. i totally forgot the name.. ahha.. something white pearl.. pfft.. it has mango, banana, sago, nata de coco and longan!( i likey!! ) in it.. give it a go.. the taste is really not bad IMO.. =)

he order this fried rice also because he was a little hungry.. hmm.. i would say that it tasted quite nice, but a little too oily.. =)

overall, the desserts are good,

but because they just started the business,

they do not have enough workers, hence the service was a bit slow..

but i would definitely go back and try out the variety dessert they provided.. =p...

at night (0000), i went back to that area again.. haha..

for a surprise celebration for Priscilla, my childhood friend..

never seen her for years and suddenly Rachel called me up for this thing,

so i immediately said okay as i appreciate chances that i can gather with my old friends..

she was in total shock that day.. ahahaha

four of us.. Eric, Rachel, Pris and me.. =)

her special made handmade birthday card.. =)

great day i would conclude..
it felt like i finally get to breathe for one day after the hectic semester..
and now, it ended already..
after finals, im officially done with semester 5..
one month holiday is near..
and imma gonna rock my holiday with my own way.. =D..
staying at home and do ntg would be the best i could do..
also probably with friends call me for outings..
but if dont have, i will just stay at home..
it's okay~

it's such a long post i think, gotta stop now and...
shall try to study? but am still lazy.. =p

signing off,

cecilia.

not emo post.. =)

2010-10-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

i am demotivated..
but i am supposed to be worry-free..
i don't want people around me feel stressed out yet i'm the one doing it..
hypocrite=.=
things will work out..
that's basically what i am holding on most of the time..
but today, perception changed..
sometimes i feel, effort will not pay off..
is it because not enough effort were put in?
is it because of my problem?
i don't want to be a failure,
never wanted to be one - kiasu you called it.
i always wanted to excel,
but always seemed to be lacking of something..
something that i do not know..
what is that particular thing that always restricts me from improving?
is it my very-low confidence?
or it is actually that i don't even know what i am capable for?
sometimes i am so reluctant to believe that,
everyone is born with something good, something that make them special..
because i don't see it in myself..
i certainly don't..

ok, maybe, maybe what is so special about myself is..
i always hoping to be better,
and i am trying striving hard to be one..
but i never knew if i did succeed..hahaha...

this is definitely not an emo post...
more like ranting about how i felt like at that particular moment this morning..
but after that, i totally left in behind..
see how fast i adapt/recover?
unbelievable...@@..
cold blooded sheesh!
i just searched for how to make my life worthwhile.. haha..
google is man's best fren?
oops.. not advertising it!
it is completely a question okay~

so to make my life worthwhile,
according to Jim Rohn,
i have to learn, try, stay, and care..
from that,
i realize that,
even though i am learning,
but i don't seem to be learning happily,
i don't try,
tend to give up before trying..
no wonder my life seems worthless all this while..
OK!
from now on,
i should learn!
i should try!
i should stay and care with open heart! =)
work hard for it kie?

shall off for my assignment..
will learn how to do it,
try to do as many as i can,
stay for awhile more after i want to stop doing it,
and that's because i care for my performance in class.. =p

sparky sparky here i come!

2010-10-15T19:33:00.005+08:00

both pic taken after movie at the interlink of Mid Valley and Gardens

went to mid valley for the career fair on last Saturday.. fun..
chicken rice was expensive! but okay la.. quite nice...
delicious was very tempting yea? lets go makan next time!
but before that, i should work first.. =)

step up 3 after that.. 3D.. not so much of 3D effect..
i felt a bit wasted for watching 3D though..
but i definitely love those dance.. cool!
storyline... typical ones.. ntg much..
with his colleages btw..
very kind people! funny i meant.. oops.. haha
reached home late..
got "ngam" a lil by mommy & sis..
maybe no next time?

gonna try something new with new people..
hoping for some new sparks..
ntg went wrong..seriously..
just that, i think it is bad for not being able to make something work out sometimes..
it is just out of my limit... and i hate it very much..
i shouldn't just leave it all to them...
i might be a lil selfish.. that i chose to go with something else than remain the same..
but i din mean anything by doing so...
plainly wanna learn to deal with different kinds of people..
get some experience, wishing for some sparks..
thats only what im hoping for...

every cloud has a silver lining...

im definitely lovin this quote...because it taught me alot..
i love reading quote..
rather than force myself to read book..
maybe i shall turn to quotes to improve my vocabulary?
=)
plus it is something i can reach easier than holding a book and force myself to understand..
i need silence when i read.. thats hard.. so yea~

=)
i miss childhood..
because it is worry free... yay! for that..

random.. i know..
work work work
money money money..
assignment assignment assignment...
I AM COMING!!

OH! one last thing!
one more month of diet to go...
cecilia.. jia you! =)
say no to food! =X..
oily ones i meant..

=p

there's always rainbow after storm.. =)

2010-09-27T19:21:00.002+08:00

woots..
today's a better day..
yesterday was such a mess..
i was so stressed up with assignments.. the first time.. seriously..
i always do thing last minute..
but experienced such a situation definitely is my first time..
i aint going to finish my work..
totally helpless.. i didnt know what to do..
writing aimlessly was exactly what was i doing...

but LUCKILY.. things got better at night..
and even better in today's morning..
after the test, at least it's a relief..
and at least i make my assignment close to the word count already..
left one more and im so called done..

but of cuz, save the "best" for last.. obviously it ain't gonna be easy..
so..
cracking my brain to understand what my fren told me..
and frankly speaking..
i dun understand still..
nvm lar.. gonna crap along the way..

gonna cut my hair soon.. outta shape already!
its ugly..
i din even want to style it.. gosh..
short hair needs more care.. agree?
but i still like having short hair.. =)
more styles la..
instead of long straight hair or curly hair..
short hair is plain awesome TO ME...
=)

have the baking mood..
but im on diet..
should i?

feeling bad + field trip

2010-09-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

i really don't like what happened today..
it is not like, i have put in lots of effort but hey i still did put in effort.
i kept come to you to get the approval. it's not like i just nah give it to you at the very last minute.
but how could you disapprove at the last minute but in fact u approved it previously?
i don't blame you..
I'm blaming myself more as i again brought so much trouble to others.
i didn't want it at all..
i really hate bringing all the unnecessary works to others when it is supposed to be my job..
i felt really bad.. but i don't know what could i do to make up the mistakes i have done..
i feel like shit i tell u.. i really did..

however, i m good now..
i won't be bothered by things for long time..
what done is done, rather than emo all the time, it is better for me to buck up and do something better..

well.. field trip today was fun..
the camera, control room and stuff..
but why would i look more to the PR side when i got zero interest in PR?
i cant do PR job for nuts...o.o
bad relations with people..=X
hmmm.....tmr would be better i think? the refreshment i am actually looking forward to..
seriously..
maybe the printing part will catch my attention..
but what can i eat is the main thing..
OH! i need to send Ms. Naomi something.. almost forgot OMG!
oh well.. but i wont be eating much also since i'm on diet now..
but can see and try abit is better than nothing right..
what if the refreshment part is just a lie?
bet alot ppl will complain? haha maybe..

seriously.. gotta start working on my stuff..
procrastinating!! i hate you like seriously..grr
please stay away from me laaaaaaaah!

2010-09-20T18:44:00.002+08:00

today's post is completely messy.. im just writing out something that appears in my head...

* first thing first...speech was bad today.. blame the hair can i? blame my hands.. blame the everything..=(
calculated in my heart.. guess the other marks wont be able to pull up the whole percentage..
ok i m like sad... i need you.. =(

but nah.. im okay.. i wont be too sad over my results actually..
but when the final outcome is out..
same thing is going to pop up all over again... ha ha ha...
nvm la... as i believe that i can still do better... =) try harder when there's a chance!

well.. things aren't going so well recently.. wonder when will it be okay..
nothing i can do but keep waiting..

*determination is doing its work.. but external influences cause me to be slow...
haih..
i dun like it...

*OH! need to buy a weighing machine soon! to constantly check on my weight.. ahem...
if not go over board den it wont be a good thing.. =p

*its been long since i drink coffee.. im missing the taste..
but no choice.. i have to try to quit..

*man! i din eat bread for few weeks! argh!!!
not good.. i love the taste of bread.. call me a bread maniac.. =D

* assignments are piling up.. yet i cant help to feel the pressure inside me..
i dunno why and im so lazy to kick my ass to start doing them.. why eh?

i think i am lacking of many values... shall find them back right?
but where should i?

great challenges is queuing up

2010-09-14T19:17:00.003+08:00

suddenly, i feel like challenges are coming toward me..
silently, openly..
assignments and studies are definitely part of them.. datelines are crucial...
all fall on this pretty Sept.
which i think, this is a bad month...
because.. something that was really killing me just happened not long ago...
not gonna talk about it because it is now the past tense..
am only going to treasure and cherish the moment, the time i have..
appreciate, this word is so great yet I'm still far from it...

back to assignment... let me tell u what..
two assignments are on weekly basis.. have to keep it on track, consistently..
one assignment i think would be handing in on 20th Sept,
another draft of assignment on 20th Sept as well..
test on 21st of Sept..
one assignment due on 27th and lastly, one more due on the 30th...
sounds fun right?
great!

without knowing there are actually so many assignments suppose to due this month,
i gladly went on an interview for part time job while accompanying my friend to her interview with a person from the industry..
which that was part of the assignment..
i would went with her because i was suppose to interview her at first.. well.. long story..
and yes, i was so lucky that, i almost gotten the job..
need to wait for the screening...
so i need to went to some training on both 16th and 17th...
guess whaaaat... 16th is HOLIDAAAY... ahh gonna spend the holiday w/o resting!
where 17th, we supposed to have assignment outing..
luck isn't on my side isn't it?

not finish yet.. after telling the girl that i will make it on both the days...
i asked Daniel to find me a creative director for my interview.. assignment as u know...
thinking just to try my luck and asked him to send out the email..
and surprisingly.. she REPLIED!!
great!!!!!
BUT her free time will be tmr late afternoon or either on Friday...
Tomorrow got class.. so i guess it's probably impossible..
17th is on Friday... my screening and assignment outing day... HOW?!
plus i wont have any transport to get to the kelana square.. pretty tough ya..

anddd... I wont be able to see him for weeks... gotta miss him like crazy especially when i start working with me drowning in the assignments sea... how? =(.. that's the saddest part of all tho...

challenging much? gotta split my body to multitask...
hope i got super power so much now..
then i will have no problems with dateline... =)

gotta do my survey now.. distributing them tmr!
wish me luck that i could get them back on TIME~

tough life means i learn more.. achieve better and going to do better in the future..
time to change...
be a better man..=p

foooooooood

2010-09-03T00:31:00.002+08:00

this semester is all about food...
it comes from last two semester actually...
during sem 3, the last day of final was yika's bday..
so then we celebrated her bday in heartz (if im not mistaken with the name)...
den last sem, it was my bday.. den......... we celebrated in Chili's.
somehowwww... it became a "tradition" for us to go for some better food when we come out as a gang.. a big gang..
and from there, i get to eat at different places where i have never been before...
TGIF, Chili's, Souled Out...
oh! the cake in Chili's, i did mention before right?
it was really good.. again, although i dont fancy chocolate but i like this cake..
their portion of food was biggggg too! everyone almost puke after eating..
learn from there, we shall share it next time..
easier for calculation also lol
and souled out, the food was okay..
din get to eat too much because that day i was quite full, maybe because of the carbonara was a lil too creamy..
but that is definitely a good place for friends' gathering.
yesterday.. we went italianies for Ivan's birthday......
the food was good... but the portion, looks quite small.. hahaha... maybe for too many of us to share... it seemed small.. =p
the cake was good too! haha
had great times going all these places with the good friends of mine..
really treasure them alot..
and most importantly, me and him get to eat more variety of food too... =)
too bad... i dun have pictures for the places..
will try to upload if i got the original photos..

just for the sake of blogging.. =D..
sorry for the wordy post.. hehe

伯牙絕弦

2010-08-28T20:01:00.002+08:00

this song is very nice...
i like the part where lee hom plays the gu zheng..
it is just plainnnnnnnnnnnn AWESOME! =D

知人知面知己知彼又知心古人說這就是所謂知音
相知相惜相親相愛也相憶朋友妳會不會常把我想起
何年何月何日何時再相聚何時能把酒言歡暢回憶
很多很多很深很深的回憶很多歌我只想要爲妳唱起

春秋時期遠近知名伯牙琴藝沈魚也出水馬兒仰秣聆聽
聆聽寂寞的聲音舉世知名不如一個知音
直到子期聞琴解開伯牙心境高山流水風景似有靈悉
高山青流水靜如鏡無言卻勝過有言的天地

聽宮商角征羽那歌詞未寫上的是那份弦外的延長音
斟一杯酒一抱拳一句關心在千年之後再延續不變的旋律
當春雪融夏景秋風爲我捎封信
冬冬鑼隆冬牆冬冬鑼隆隆冬牆牆又是思念的四季

某年某月某天伯牙再訪子期風景依舊綠子期卻已歸西
觸景觸琴即傷情伯牙絕弦只因再無知音
千年過去當我再度撥弄琴韻更多冷箭更多冷言冷語
請妳聽請輕輕傾聽唱給我永遠不離棄的知音

update update

2010-08-16T23:42:00.004+08:00

semester 5 now..
slacking like nobody's business..
it is bad..
im afraid that my cgpa is dropping..
omg i really don't want it...
please help me to get rid of my slacking attitude and give me DETERMINATION and hardworking..

i need money also... gosh i need cash so much okay..
got so many little things wanna buy...
budget budget...
i dunno where my money have gone to seriously...
always gone with the wind...
sigh..
daniel lim if u are reading this, please tell me where my money have gone to okay? =pp

and.. sorry lor for pinching u.. but u also shoulnt have done that even if u were angry also lor..
i dun like it... no next time.. or i wont tam u anymore.. =p

thats my update la! u better comment..

ps: bila mau jumpa? XD

2010-07-19T14:04:00.002+08:00

人家常说，人生如戏，戏如人生。。
这个说法，蛮对的。。
我们爱看戏，爱看一些高潮迭起的戏。。
对于那些平平无奇的戏多加批评。。

人生如戏，有些人的生活的确很丰富，
每天都有看不完的人，面对不完的事，烦不完的问题。。
戏如人生，又何尝不是？
就是因为有人的生活这样，而戏里反映的正是现实生活中的点点滴滴。。

尽管如此，我宁愿自己的人生不如戏一般华丽，有色彩。。
平淡是福。。是连戏里的人物也会说的一句对白。。
轰轰烈烈的爱情，我不奢求，
即使偶尔会觉得，人生非得要轰轰烈烈一回，但是，还是不要的好。。
因为轰轰烈烈之后，多半是遍体鳞伤。。
错综复杂的家庭关系，我更不要，免得是非多多。
而事业一飞冲天，我也不怎么渴求，没那么大的头，戴不下那么大顶帽。。
免得树大招风。。办公室政治多的可怜。。

人，踏踏实实过生活真的很不错。。
我觉得我现在的生活很好，我不应该要求更多。。
应该要求的，只有本身的增值，检讨，然后进步。。
自我增值很重要。。
好是不怕做，人应该努力存好心，做好事，说好话。。
这是戏里的对白，也正正是现实生活中缺少的重要元素。。

想到许多人的生活困苦，我觉得，我更加应该珍惜自己的生活，
感激，珍惜，满足于现状。。
不需要戏剧般的人生。。
平凡，是我所追求的。。。

不过。。。好像和我读的科目很大落差哦。。

hoho

2010-07-15T00:39:00.003+08:00

it's holiday..
i am like happy.. =)
but i screwed my final paper!
hell yeah!
i din know how to and that i was so cranky until i feel like scolding everyone around me..
=S
haha something was not right with me then..
but still i managed to crap something out.. note.. SOMETHING only..
im definitely not gonna get good grade for this subject...
im actually quite sad..
but i would say i actually tried my very best..
even though i still blame myself i should have focused more and rmb as many as i can..
no point blaming as its already over...
just gotta move on..

had an belated celebration yesterday.. (its 12.44am now..haha)
i had alot of fun but...(*censored*)
thanks for the molten and dear, the lady bird cake too.. =p
i like the cake.. it tasted awesome. even though i dont fancy chocolate. but it's indeed nice to eat.. haha...
it was really funny moment when i tot the birthday song is for some other table out there... ahaha..
mana tau.. that was for me.. hehe..
surprised but too shy to respond.. =P

alright..
having headache now..
guess not enough water..
gtg!

gonna start enjoying my holiday! yuuhoo~

night!

cheers~

one down.. one more~

2010-07-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

finished my Advertising paper today..
urm.. it was okay...
i mean i know how to do..but..something is not right..
haha.. i always think that i could always done better..
hehe nvm.. passed already..

i don't have the feeling of final exam..
maybe this semester just came so fast and ending so fast until i dont feel anything.
really.. its like today is the final, but i just started my sem 4 yesterday..
haha.. fast enough?

wednesday will be PR paper...
this paper make me feel more scared actually..
because.. i dont really understand about it..
not even.....a thing.. =X

so yeah.. have to study.. no choice lor..
sigh
have to study on THAT particular day.. ish...

alright, shall take a rest now.. =p
and study for the last paper.. =)

cheers

grrr

2010-07-10T13:16:00.002+08:00

i really hate spammers!
i feel like my blog somehow got polluted!
how can i get rid of them?
even though its based on some auto shuffle thing but still..
why always my blog?~

will they be gone if i update my blog more?
if it works this way..
i will update more!
=)

monday - advertising..
study cecilia..
study...

u still have ur PR not started even a thing yet..
u dun do it now..
u are definitely screwing this whole semester!

random

2010-07-07T20:30:00.003+08:00

it took me so long to update my blog..
having so many spammers in my blog always give me the thought of removing the blog....
since i do not have readers also..
but this blog has a lot of my memories..
good, bad, childish..
once in awhile trace back the past is quite fun,
i always blame myself for being so stupid last time..

haha..=p

finals is next week..
i hope i will study.. and excel..
but..
somehow i don't think i am suitable in this industry..
well, will only decide after i go for internship.. =)

time flies.. 2 more weeks like that to one and a half year.. so fast..
celebrating? dont think so.. haha..

i need to work! any lobang? i wan moneyyyyyyyyyyyy..

ok random.. haha..
shall stop now...

cheers!

JOKE!

2010-06-07T20:47:00.000+08:00

（姐姐在房间和孩子玩和讲话，讲了我外甥用了某品牌牙膏后牙齿变白了很多。。然后我走了进去）

我：阿弟，你给我看一下你的牙齿*eeeeeeee*

5岁的外甥：*eeeeee**露下面一排牙齿*

我：上面的leh?

5岁的外甥：*eeeeeee* 几白~

我：。。。。。。
（笑翻！）

bad day

2010-05-25T19:54:00.003+08:00

today is not my day...
i dun like it...
its fine lar that i turned out to be a joke... i find it funny also..
but i really dun like this happen to me so often...
i had my shoes spoiled in the college for three times already..
the difficult situation is sometimes hard to deal with.. argh..
if i have got no yika who helped me today, i might needed to walk with bare foot...
oh noo.. i dun wan... =(

abit stress over the comm research.. =(..
i feel like i have chosen a wrong topic?
yes? no?
it would be pretty interesting i guess..
but why do i feel like i actually lack of something?
haih.. just go with the flow lar...
follow whatever only.. but i shall be more initiative.. to learn more...
for the sake of myself...
and..
not forgetting the bf who is always beside me.
(not when he forgets about me for his "beauty sleep" joking laahhh~=p)
i really appreciate whatever u have done...
thanks baby!
btw, when can we meet?
can i have u both saturday and sunday? hehe..
im greedy.. i know! =P

ok lah..
shall go and prepare for the comm research proposal and maybe have a short nap..
im quite tired i wonder why..

cheers..

spammer

2010-05-23T10:09:00.003+08:00

i wonder why are they so many people spam my blog recently...
is that a form of advertising? LOL..
it doesnt work on me.. sorry~

the chat box is for those who actually have the intention to read my blog to comment..
(cheyy i know i dun have readers laa~)
but even so, that doesnt mean that i like spammer... sheeesh...

so.. dun spam my blog please~

first day of college?

2010-05-17T20:27:00.003+08:00

Yes,
today is the first day of semester 4.
and after 3 weeks of holiday,
i actually feel very lazy to go back to college.. =p
yes yes, i know
i am so not a study person...

alright that's not the point..
the first class was comm research.
aha,
i feel the tension even though it is only the FIRST class...

why?

well,
firstly,
it is a subject with 100% coursework.
which means last minute is a big no no..

second, my lecturer is definitely want to help us in the subject,
hence she has to "torture" us will hell lots of thinking, brainstorming and not forgetting,
weekly exercises (or i should call it weekly assignment?)
well,
she will be suffering in marking our work as well...
so,
i am not complaining about this.. =)

third,
i still don't know what i want to write,
i have the big idea but then,
it is too general..
and i still don't see the aspect that i want to research on.. =(
but i hope i will figure it out soon, and i HAVE to..

first day of class and i am sick..
luckily i feel much better now after trying different medicines.. lol
and i must take good care of myself...
i am not allowed to get sick in this short semester because i don't want to miss any classes...
i hate and afraid that i cannot catch up if i ever absent in one class..
the feeling is definitely torturing..

i am not hardworking..
u know,
saying is always louder and easier than action...
but i really hope someone will guide me and tell me what to study...
omg!
i am so dependent!!! =(
and i hate this... argh!

blah...
i have problem in organizing a proper post..
>.< sorray!

ok la, its time to stop..
shall learn more about the skills of blogging by reading more and more BLOGS.. =)

cheers,
cc

IP MAN 2

2010-05-06T16:00:00.004+08:00

since everyone is blogging about IP Man 2, i guessed i should miss the "trend" too..

watched it with friends in One Utama on 2nd of May..
got free ticket from GSC so yea..

well,
it was really an awesome piece!
the different types of kung fu (Chinese Martial Art) were nicely choreographed and yes! well presented by Donnie Yan and Sammo Hung!
Donnie Yan is the master of Wing Chun where Sammo Hung is the master of Hung Kuen..

like seriously,
i got angry by watching the so called world winner for western boxing, twister being so racist!
i was cursing in the cinema LOL..
of cuz, quietly. =p
i just hate it by seeing people being so unfair and look down on other races so much..
i have no right to judge,
but what Ip Man said is right! hoho
the difference in status shouldn't lead to the difference of dignity.
in that sense, everyone is equals.
yup!
i completely agree..
what says u?

btw i haven watched Iron Man 2 yet..
haha..
will watch it soon i guess..
if i ever go out lah~

cant wait for the one day trip.....
plan it ppl plan it!
(you know who u are, hohoho)

oh ya!
i have heard that Jay Chou will be starring in Ip Man 3..
i'm like shocked!
why him?
i think the kung fu soccer's goal keeper is still the best choice!
hehehe =p..

cheers!

love everything of u

2010-04-30T21:27:00.001+08:00

love the spaghetti u cooked,
love the mushroom soup u prepared,
love the love we share,
love the surprise u gave, (even though i actually expected~)
love the effort you have put in.
love that you love me.
and last but not least, i love you too~

=)

adui

2010-04-26T21:53:00.002+08:00

i realized i have got no luck in high tech, electronic stuff..
computer, laptop, mp3, mouse, speaker, headphone, handsfree..
simply because, these thing that i own,
they either wont last long,
or they sure will have some problems after awhile.
let me tell you one by one..

my first computer, it got struck by lightning for a few times.

my laptop, it crashed after a few months i bought.

mp3, it got lost at first,
and now i've found it back,
but after awhile, the small screen is not showing anything..

speaker, spoil easily..

headphone.. omg! i changed for few times already!
either the thing broke or the speaker something wrong..

handsfree..lost or spoil..

best thing, MOUSE!
usually not that easy to spoil right?
my fren have been using his for few years..
and me?!
i have been changing since the day i have computer..
wth?

am i that bad luck?!

I'm like sad.......
because my mouse spoiled AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crap...

does this mean that i should use techno stuff in my life?
luckily i din spread the bad luck to other appliances in the house...
Ooooopsssss!

*TOUCH WOOD*

i am happy

2010-04-24T00:20:00.002+08:00

finally i have done with my semester 3.. =)
i am happy that i have learnt alot from this semester..
not only in terms of academy but something more than that..

i learn something that actually i knew it since last time,
its just that, i never expected i will be going through this kind of thing..
it even made me felt so emotional.. (i wonder why)
its about life,
and yes, this is life..
to survive, you have to accept that..
yes, now i know, and learning to adapt to it..

and really thanks to two WOMEN, haha.. for saving me from depression.. lol
they are just so nice to be friend with..
glad that i get to know them better in this semester too..
and also, some that i did not expect to get so close to..
what i have gained from this semester - friendships.. =)..
i am happy, really..

happy that i have finished exam, although with some regrets,
and i know i always can do better, which this always turn out to be the words that i said after the end of a semester..
shall learn to be more hardworking? i know i should, but im not sure if i can make it..
determination, come to me!
i want to stand out!
to survive!

woooooots

2010-04-12T20:02:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder, what is on my mind..
i feel so bad whenever i have that thinking..
and it goes worse when i know im so not capable.. it sucks to the max..
crap..
since when i am such a pessimist?
i dun like myself... blahhhh...

who am i?

2010-04-01T02:00:00.004+08:00

this post is a very random post which will be me, talking about myself..
im finding out, what kind of person i am.

sometimes i wonder,
is there any problem with my personalities?
being myself too much is not a good thing?
people hate me that way?

then how am i going to behave?
smile ALL the time and pretend that ntg can make me angry?
maybe i could, but definitely not at this moment.
im so not a good tempered person..
i got frustrated easily but i swear im changing..
i try to suppress my emotion when i talk, yes i do get over excited or over react sometimes
but heck, i wont react so for long..
my temper comes fast and goes fast..

im sometimes a pessimist. i really am..
haha.. but i dun show much to others as i prefer to be the listener..
learning to give great advices and being as convincing as i can are something that make me feel better, make me feel like i m good at something.. at least.

i like to stick to people whom i think will concern about me.. haha.. yeah..
that's much like a thing that kids will do..
somehow.. i m very clingy.. to him, or to friends.

i love attention..
who doesnt? it just depending on the level on how much attention a person wants.
to me, im a very contradict person.. sometimes i love attention, sometimes i would rather not.
maybe i should say, i want people to remember me..

i start to pressure myself..not sure its in a good or bad way.. but the feeling is not good.. get things done is happy, but after that the feeling or regret for not giving my best is huge too.. yet i still cant give all in to do anything.. i do not know why..

im trying to be as good as i can.. i help people with all i can.. not sure unconsciously am i being selfish.. but i guess i did help people in some ways.. am i?

being a person like this, is a good or bad thing? i really don't know. still got alot more to talk about myself i know.. but i cant think of any now.. but those are enough i guessed..

how to be a good person? i really would like to know about it... should i google it too?

人，是怎么一回事？

2010-03-01T20:58:00.001+08:00

突然间，我觉得人是很奇怪的东西（动物？）
思想很奇怪，
待人处事很奇怪，
性格很奇怪。。

很难去了解每个人心里到底想的是什么。。
连我自己，也不了解自己要的，做的是为了什么？

读书为了未来，可是我似乎看不到，自己的未来可以很辉煌很成功。。
我突然很怀疑，我读书，是为了什么？
为了文凭？为了未来？为了兴趣？
但是我根本不可能在这一科里特别出众。。
我不是什么读书的料。。
单单为了文凭，我就不会一直要好成绩了吧？
为了兴趣？可是似乎不能当饭吃。。
我不是一个很聪明的人，但是却不喜欢输。。
很不好对吧？
我知道，我要改，那个心却总会想一些不好的东西。。
然后就自己和自己打架。。
什么跟什么？
天使与恶魔这些老掉牙的戏码原来真的会发生在现实生活中。。

我想要进步，但却不为自己努力，
我希望自己可以很能干，
但却不知觉的依赖。。
我很想要出众，但却没有天赋。。

为什么我的思想那么复杂？单纯一点不好咩？
如果我可以笨多一点，我觉得我会很快乐。。
可是，我笨一点，另一点，却想得特别多。。

我应该怎么做？

what a day!!

2010-02-26T00:25:00.002+08:00

i am sorry that i abandoned my blog for SO long, i really lazy and no mood to update..
but seriously, i have to talk about today.. an awesome day..LOL

i happily done my poster assignment and the documentation, and printed the doc out, however, as i reached college, i get a really bad news that the margins i set was WRONG..argh!!!
i have to re-print = spend unnecessary money... i copied my files to DVD and what my fren told me that, CD-R is a must.. DVD is not allowed... WTF?! fine, su wern lent me her cd so that i could burn the files to the cd = wasted my dvd and wasted her cd!!! sigh

nvm, i tot everything is done after this, but when i went to print my poster, i left the umbrella i brought along.. so i have to return to the shop and take it..

fine.. then as i back to the classroom, tot everything was fine again.. another bad news popped up, which was, PRNT SCRN is a must!!!!!!!!! OMG!! which means i have to redo EVERYTHING again!!!T_T...

ok, i borrow laptop from faisal... and when i put in the dvd, cannot open the filess!!! OMG!!! the cd also!!!! i was really no energy already.. luckily, afiqah lent me her laptop.. so i got to edit...

as i went to print, the computer hang!! @@.. waiting for dunno how long, still hang, then the uncle dunno do how many times only started to print.. then when i was printing, fren called me and told me that lecturer is leaving!! crap, i had not printed out yet!!! then the very last minute, i finally printed all out, as i left, i realized i left my harddisk! WTF!! ran back and take and ran back to the class.. she already left the class...

i quickly get my cover page and stapler all the doc together.. and i asked my fren to pass up for me as i really dun wanna walk already..

what a good day to me... sigh..

assignments piling up...i have to really working on it already laaaaaaaaaaa...haih..

i'm your sweetheart and no one else's

2010-02-01T15:16:00.007+08:00

28th of January 2010,
was me and dear dear's one year anniversary..=)
but din get to celebrate on that day itself,
because i have got class until 6 on that day.
so we decided to celebrate on friday!

he came and picked me up from college,
and then we went pyramid~
老地方~
to watch movie~
oh! its been SO LONG since i watched movie!!
we watched tooth fairy..
its funny..
i like it...
and also because it made dear laughed so many times..
so cute..
hehe

and then after that,
we headed to taipan,
and did survey on something that dear wants to buy...
walked around taipan..
fuh...
train my legs muscle..lol..
when we were on our way going back the klang
the traffic in subang was abit slow due to the traffic light.
so i had taken dear's pic in the car..=D

lol...
what an expression~

i look ugly but who cares...

do i look like i cut my hair?hehehe

o.o

for our dinner,
we went to Windmill that near my place.
i remembered i went there before when i was really small...
haha..
the ambience was good...
the food was ok...
service was good...
price....
not to say very expensive...
it depends actually...
and of cuz,
i did take some pictures...=D

he looks cute right?hehe

no proper and nice pic for both of us...XD
nvm la...
can take next time..hahaha

oh btw,
i handed in my first assignment today!
although it is not good..
but at least i finish it...
ON time..
thanks to dear...
he taught me how to do and gave me guidance actually...
=)
tell me how do i live without him?

alright...
got to go and start hypnotizing myself to start doing my assignments!

just for the sake of update~

2010-01-23T18:58:00.004+08:00

cute, isnt he?
just want to post his pic here...=)

already have assignments waiting for me to start...
yet im still slacking...
argh!
what lar...
i dunno how to do...T_T

script, reviews, featured article...
seems easy but not at all~
the ideas are not coming in...
things just tend to happen EVERTIME i forgot to bring my camera along...
=.=..
why like that one...

stupid vista..
whatever i installed also got blue screen...
how am i going to do my work?!
tell me laaaaa~

actually rite,
i dunno what to update..
ntg special happened to me recently..
maybe got, but i forgot?XD
sorry..
memory getting real bad...

im blogging nonsense...
==..
i will find out something happy to talk about...
soon...
soon....

i try~

=p..

i know i shouldn't act this way..

2010-01-15T14:44:00.002+08:00

as far as i went through few blogs of my friends,
i discovered that,
alot ppl are being emo these days..
i wonder why..

even i myself also feeling so..
isn't that brand new year is meant to be better than the previous one?
or its just me,
started to grow up,
think more,
and worried more?

studies wise,
i know,
im not giving my 100%,
i slack like how i usually did in high skul and the passed semester...
i also know,
even if i do,
i give all i can,
im still the good-for-nothing ones...
even when people say im not,
all are only comforting me...
but deep inside my heart,
i know how far i can go...
low self esteem u can call...

i observe around...
and i keep them all to myself and analyse it alone,
i realized,
im so not capable...
i dun handle things well,
i dun handle my emotion well...
i wonder why am i so anti social these days...
i wasnt so back then...
i can talk very much...
but these days,
i cant seems to start any topic randomly...
that makes me feel so bad...

money wise...
oh thats such a big issue...
TO EVERYONE..
i dunno how to talk about that..
i'm trying out something...
but it just doesnt go well...
i share but im not good at it...
am i not convincing enough?
not like i wan success all the time...
but not failing always please...
i cant take it...
thats my own problem...
im such a coward...
what can i do to improve myself?
yea i always knew the answer but why i dun get my ass off to start improving?!

i started to worried..
future...
what am i going to be...
not to say im regret...
but im afraid that it wont work out...

i like to pressure myself
even when im not able to achieve...
being so negative...
since when i became like that?

2010 + wedding dinner picture on christmas..

2009-12-31T23:44:00.011+08:00

2010 is here!
im one year older...
college also started...
and the timetable....
wooooow~
im ~~lovin'~~ it

wanted to update about the wedding dinner i went on christmas
but i was just so lazy to resize the pic...
and in the end,
my niece resized them..
XD!

ntg much but i camwhored alot during the dinner...
hehe...
ok la,
dunno what to talk...
pic time~

fake smile eh?aiks

jie fu and da jie...=)

san jie and my nephew

me and mommy..

mommy, me and my niece(qin)
i wore the angel hair band...hahaha

me and nephew...

jie and me...
qin's twin sister...=)
was sick on that day..poor thing..

da jie's family...

the kidsss with my er jie and er jie fu...

the four sisters and the mother

us with the bride

and one last stupid pic....
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

lol...
we have ntg better to do...XD

btw,
the kids all say that i was "angel" for that day
and devil for everyday...
=p...
im fierce to them..
hehe...

ok...
shud stop here...
still thinking if i shud upload pic of lagoon..
but its 2009 pic ad...
ahahaha..
maybe shud start blogging about 2010...
=)

stopping here...
tada~

~end~

十月围城观后感。。。review of Bodyguards And Assassins

2009-12-24T22:00:00.003+08:00

这部戏，看了过后，我很想写自己的感想。。
英语会词穷，所以选择自己比较强的中文。。
昨天在Pyramid，买了3点的戏票和宝贝看戏。。

迟了一点，进去的时候已经开始了。。
这部戏，讲的，
是关于孙中山要到香港和各个分会讨论起义的事，
把满清给推翻。。
改变了中国历史。。。

为这部电影打了8分。。呵呵。。

陈少白开始的部署，从孙文（孙中山, Sun Yat Sen）先生到香港的4天前开始，
这四天，发生了很多的事，因为，这一次的讨论，
对满清来说，是一个很大的威胁。。
所以，清兵相对的，也想尽办法要阻止这一次的，“会议”吧。。
这一部电影，从大家保护孙中山的那一刻开始进入了高潮。。

而从第一个牺牲的同胞开始，我哭到了散场。。。
不知道为什么，深深感收到，当时的革命精神。。
如果没有他们，没有他们的牺牲，没有他们的舍我精神，
根本不会有现在的中国。。
敬意在心里油然而生。。
并在心里默默地对他们深深地鞠了个恭。。。

接下来，我只对那些我自己有印象的人给予我自己的意见吧。。

巴特尔（应该是曹小强吧）—王复明，卖臭豆腐的小贩，原为少林寺弟子，拥有
高人一等的身材，还拥有少林功夫的底子。。
却没有任何大家经验，但为了中国，他孑然一身，参与了革命活动。。
在保护孙先生的时候，他牺牲小我的精神，让我不仅流下了眼泪。。

李宇春—方红，戏班打女，一心为了亡父报仇。。
当然，也为了革命献出了自己。。。
只有十六岁的她，没得读书，从小随父天涯海角的跑，
到了最后的拼死相救，
是那么的让人揪心。。

甄子丹—沈重阳，这一位“绿衣”（当时是英国管辖时期警察的称呼），
好赌，只要有钱，就什么都可以帮人做。。
但是，知道自己有一个女儿、自己爱的女人为什么离开他的时候，
他终于做了一件，人生中最有意义和尊严的事。。
让我真的很感动。。。

谢霆锋—阿四，对少爷老爷忠心耿耿的车夫，
快要娶媳妇的他，依然不忘老爷的恩情。。少爷的恩惠。。
试问，现在的人，还有这样的吗？有谁不是自私自利呢？

梁家辉—陈少白，革命党人，
为了革命，不畏惧生死，
一心为了革命而努力。。。
他的精神、热血还有永不放弃的方式，的确，是现在人所没有的。。。

曾志伟—警长斯密夫，
视李玉堂为朋友，虽然没有参与革命，
毕竟是英国的警长，上头命令，不得不从。。
但是依然贡献了自己能做的。。哪怕只是一份绵力。。也足矣。。
（但是我不知道此人为虚构或真实）

这些人，都不是为了自己的利益而革命，
他们都是大爱的。。
他们的无私奉献，我们作为后人，
更应该记着他们为了中国的牺牲。。

看了这部电影，体会到了，
旧时战争的可怕，现在人与人为了争名与利而相互厮杀的残酷，
哪里还有这些，无私、单纯的人？
现在的社会难道不必以前可怕？

不知道真正的review该怎么写，
但是这一部电影是今年的电影里让我感触最深，一度想把感想写下来。。

写的不好，请原谅哦~

my PD trip!=)

2009-12-23T23:10:00.008+08:00

alright.............
i went PD (Port Dickson) on the last fri and sat...
(18th and 19th)...
but no,
it wasnt as fun..XD
for some reasons..
and also nothing much to play...
almost almost fall sick lagi after came back...==

roughly say la,
we reached there at about 2++
checked in the Glory Beach Resort at 2.30...
(oh yea, the resort...was not really nice to stay..)
(why??? because...... I COULDNT SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT!!!wtf!!)
went to the beach at 3...
played for awhile...
forgot what time went back to the resort...
ate dinner...
den i forgot what i did,
and i sat beside ppl to watch them play mahjong until sleep...

the next day i din play den went back ad...
lol....
thats all bout the trip...

den its pictures time...

i ruin my image totally....
T_T

bro in law said...
he wanted to wear that to play water...
impossible la~!

nicest pic of me ad la!
my niece and nephew...
cute isnt he?!=D

eldest sis's family....

sis and i...
and errr.......my niece..XD

trying to be dramatic....XD...

he is REALLLLLLLYYYYY cute....=D

am i right?^^

again our dramatic cells popped up..XD

he has big eyes, but when he smiles, eyes look so small...=)

xhuen, chi and i

in the end, my niece joined me to be dramatic!

i carried her...

den her turn!

the cute one is here again~~=D

this girl cut her leg on the first day, so next day she couldnt play water...=(

the son and the mother.......

after we stop playing, we were digging the "lala"..and my niece...
was picking STONE..==

and so free to look at the camera...never help la!

alright i was turning to a ninja...==

just to make sure im included in the pic...
i could do pose like that....0.0
wow..i laugh till no strength when i saw that with my sis...

the father and the son....

my niece took pictures of the "scenery" when we were back to the resort...

waaa....nice rite?

here comes the polluted one...==

this one is nice...=)

took this with my sister the next day...
ignore my UGLY hair....T_T

this was just random...=)

malaysia next top model..XD

took pic with my..............too far to explain...
just a kid...

end the post with this pic...
my bro in law...
acting like a GUA...
failed gao gao....lol

~end~

i cut my hair~~on last thursday...

2009-12-16T18:20:00.003+08:00

i realized i dunno how to tell the barber about what hairstyle to cut for me...
so that day i went to the barber shop called hair maniac..
sit down and i told that guy,
i still want to keep my hair long..
den he did the rest for me...
haha..
good...

but i should have asked him to cut my fringe shorter..
because now that length...
the hair...
very disturbing..
lol..
poking my eyes...
XD

do i look very kiddo?
or do i look lala?
i hope not..
im so not lala...
==
lala dun just wear t shirt and jeans ALL the time...
>.<

ok..
im lazy to write ad...
gtg..
bye!

sem 3 starting soon!
OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!

~end~

lalala....nice song!

2009-12-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

recently i am addicted to jbtalks...
a forum...
theres a site for ppl to write about their love stories..
im just too sibuk to know about other ppl's stories la so i just clicked to that site..
and until yesterday,
i found a really good writer...
i wonder if his story was true or fake one...
but it was really interesting and the way he wrote,
is different from the others just writing down the stories like journals...
his...
is like writing novel...
got technique la...
i dunno how to say...T_T

he posted up a youtube video..
of a song...

so i was very curious and i just play the video...
and wow!
straight away in love with that song....
got feel la..
haha...
dunno why...

share with u all...
=)...

love of a lifetime - Firehouse

R.I.P, Han Yin

2009-12-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

do not have much memories with you...
do not know u well...
but i know u are a very nice guy,
straight forward,
and funny...

i did not even have a proper picture with you..
i didn't even get the chance to know you better...
and now...
u left us,
and have gone to a better place...
i will remember you no matter what...
R.I.P,
Tan Han Yin
my friend..

oh!my blog is almost dead again!!

2009-12-03T16:12:00.005+08:00

actually i have quite alot of stuff to upload..
but i was just too lazy and...
no pic at all..
how laaa~

few days ago mom went China...
so there were chances for me to cook..
omg..
me?cook?= food not cooked...
>.<
at first i fried the vegetables...
the meat not cooked...T_T..
den i made steam egg...
in the end...
i din put water...
so the egg dried until~~~
but luckily...
we managed to finish the food...
hahaha...

da next day i cooked tom yam soup..
this time quite okay...
i think thats the only strong point of me in cooking... lol...
with the help of the tom yam cube...==
failure betol la~~

the next day..
i followed sister's friend to a wedding lunch...
i din know any other people over there..
the main point is...
i was totally a stranger to the married couple...
lol...
i just go there for the sake of eating..>.<
bad right...

after that we went and get some stuff...
so i took pic in the car...
dam sad rite..
only can camwhore in the car...
lol..
quite lifeless but still i love it..XD time pls pass slower~~~

oh!
and now mom is back..
i no longer need to cook...
LOL...
hooray~~
=p..

and i got my YU HAOMING's albums~~
wheee....
=D

lalala...
so big gurl only gila idol...>.<
sia sui...

ok la...
things that are special in this few days also updated...
let see if i got go out...
den i will update my blog again~~

=)

it's been so long....

2009-11-27T23:16:00.004+08:00

okay..
i went out with dear again yesterday~
watched NEW MOON..
yea..
the movie that make some girls go "AHHH"..
which i dun understand why...
lol..
edward...
good looking mieh~
jacob is much better...lol
man he's freaking hot weih...
his body...
so perfect~XD
even dear agreed with me okaay~~~

after that we walked around again...
and met up with candice and melody...
=D..
it's been really really long since i met candice...
almost a year...
and i was really happy to see her again...
we not very technically "yum cha" at McD..
lol...
and chatted for few hours...
ya...
with her, melody and i...
we can chat even longer if we have much more time...
but since all of us either rushing home or rushing for meeting up with frens...

den me teman dear to had his dinner at 3JC..
and after he finished so we just called it a day at about 7 oclock...

mel, cand and i...
seriously, i wonder why i put on weight when im just eating normally...
T_T

dear smiled without showing teeth...XD

dear at 3JC

and me!
looked like aunty...
i wont wear that top with long pants anymore~!

thats all...
i have got nothing to blog about...

looking forward to the outing with...
dear and his frens soon~=)

~end~

life aint that bad actually~

2009-11-21T22:46:00.008+08:00

life aint that bad actually..
hahah...
especially with my baby!!=PPP

alright.....
after soooooooo long staying at home...
relaxing..
enjoying my semester break...
again i went out with dear...
today...=D
ok i tot today was a bad day as when i reached the ktm station,
the train just LEFT at the very right time...
good timing huh...
thanks to the super good DRIVERs in front of us~

ahh after that,
reached pyramid..=DDD
and saw him!
whee...
i was so happy~
am still happy right now of course~
so because i have watched 2012 few days ago with friends...
me and dear had got no movie to watch..
so we just decided to catch a movie called...
"A Christmas Carol"..
well..
it was a lil boring but meaningful movie i can say...

we went to Sakae Sushi for lunch..
because i used to complaint so much about we din take picture like others...
this time we tried to take as many as we can..
lol...
yea i tried to act care free about how other ppl look when we were happily camwhoring~

started off with his pic of course!
looking at the menu!

and what dear ordered..
i kind of forgot the name but i could remember the price!
its the soft shelf crab - RM8.90

and my rice(totally no memory about the name) - RM10.90
both were nice..
and we ate alot of sushi too...XDXD
by the way
anyone tell me what is nice to eat in Sakae?
im a kampung girl...>.<>

he probably trying to pose so that i could take a nice pic..=p

he said he wont look good if he purposely pose for a pic...
and...
its partially true...XD

look at this guy!!!!
he was putting all the wasabi on the sushi for me!
definitely enjoyed doing that!lol..
but ahem...
im ok with wasabi...hoho

see the green green thing?
yea..wasabi~~~
dam good to me rite?lol

and this is the one i "prepared" for him...^^

and i ss-ed again...

i realized i did the same pose as dear...=p

i have no idea...
what was he trying to do...XDDDD

i took many pictures...
and only this and the previous two look presentable...@@
what to do..
i put on weight!!
GG!

i tried to be "polite" and failed...-.-

and i discussed with dear...
how to smile...
and pictures below were how he smiles~

cannot stop laughing when i saw him doing that pose..
lol...joker!

one last one...
dam kiddo right?
so cute!
and i love him!=p

after that...
we started walking around....
shopped around with dear..
yea..
he is the one always shop and i accompany him...
hehehehe....

time passed very fast...
we walked for not long(i think so)
den it was like time to go home..
before that,
we went to Honeymoon to had some dessert~

dear's rice soup - RM6

and this was the erm...
tang yuan...
the name is something like the 3 sweet ball - RM7

yea he started posing again~

tried to take nice photos together but in the end....
can see lah...
F-A-I-L-E-D again~~~~

but we did take some nice ones successfully..
but in dear's phone..
but not gonna upload them here...
=)
im lazy...

and yea...
dear got me something..
its expensive to me....
and i realized if i asked him to get it later,
definitely can buy at a cheaper price..
regretting!!!T_T..
but he didnt blame me...
sigh~
i shudnt ask for more from him...
seriously...
whatever he is doing for me...
is much greater than what i CAN do for him...
what can i say more?
=)
love you dear!

and ya!
i sms-ed a fren of mine...
didnt contact for quite some time...
for some..
unhappy reasons..
but hey!
we both missed each other okaay~
things changed~
but i still missed the chance to meet up with her..
i only text-ed her when i was in the bus and she was at pyramid at that time!!
ARGH...
bad timing again huh~
but at least we started to contact with each other...
=)..
im happy with that though...

ok...
life aint that bad after all...
i have learnt something today...
what goes around comes around.. or vice versa of course..
erm..
yah!
still learning and i hope ppl can see a brand new me in the coming year...
=D...

signing off~
goodnight~

~end~

im not using lalala so often anymore~

2009-11-19T23:18:00.005+08:00

yea...
feel bored using it already...
sometimes it just doesnt suit to be at the title column..
=p

so...
the results of semester 2 are out..
and my results...
are okay...
satisfying enough...
well i just checked them online..
not sure if there are any changes...
i hope no changes will have on the exact result slip of course..

not gonna talk much about my results since nothing much to talk...
gonna study harder for the next sem..
that's what i'm always thinking after i have completed one semester..
result is not the priority but the routine for the next semester..
guessing that i will be like the last sem..
going to the discussion room and become a nerd..
but always also say only..
never really did that by the way...
well..
action is always harder than word...
right~

gonna obtain my results slip in this few days...
gotta send it to the socso office...
to get my money for next sem..

ahh...
what a boring post today..
as i forced baby to update his blog...
yea i just read that,
ntg interesting...==
so as my post today...
pretty dull..
hehe...

oh oh,
let me update something...
guessed everyone watched this movie...
2012..
well,
i would rate it 7/10 for the effect and graphic thingy..
the techno stuff where i dunno whats that all about but they looked cool so yea..
and the part talking about all the love between couples, family and so on so on...
only a part where people telling me it was dam fake...
haha...
go watch it to find out if u wan..=)

and in the external hard disk i borrowed from my fren...
there are alot alot alot of movies...
so i watched one called 'Definitely, Maybe'..
oh thats a really good movie!
and i like it!
especially with ryan reynolds in it..
hohoho..
i like him!
cute isnt he?hehe

gonna watch more tomorrow as he is coming to collect it soon...
=(..
sad right~
dei if u see this...
pinjam me longer laaa~
=P
but i know u are on holiday now also...
shouldn't ask for more la~

alright~
time to go to bed..

oh before that,
anyone..
ajak me out?
haha..
not sure if i can go but just ask la~
=ppp...

okay..
signing off~
night!

~end~

lalala...what?

2009-11-11T21:25:00.003+08:00

holiday passed one week...
actually very fast only lar...
its only 8 weeks of holiday...
=D
i think im the only one saying that two months of holiday is SHORT...

yea...
everyone is complaining that holiday is boring i guess?
i dunno...

realized that after holiday den suddenly no classmate talks to me...
hahaha..

erm...
nvm la...
im in my own world sometimes...
=S

dun have outings also lar..
seriously..
but life is not dull afterall...
i enjoy staying at home doing ntg..
i do...
and once in awhile,
go out...
den its fine...
since the first week of holiday already went out with the bf..
so...
i think its enuf...
but,
i started to miss him ad....
dear when can i see u again laaa~

erh...
anyone tell me what to update?
i dun wan to kill my own blog...

oh ya oh ya!!
yu haoming's album is releasing!!!
yay!!
im happay~~~
he is sooooooooooo handsome in the album cover!
fuh...

see that?!!!!!!
tell meeeeee........
how can i not liking him!!!
*droolssss*

=ppp

ok,
im sorry,
shall control myself...

will dig out things to update...
sooon...

i guess?

goodnight ppl!

~end~

lalala....holiday~!

2009-11-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

i enjoy my holiday...
i enjoy not doing anything and stay at home...
really...

not doing anything is just very nice...
XD..
dun u think so?
=P

however,
today i decided to bake cookies~~~
i planned it few days ago...
got the recipe and tips from afiqah,
so to prevent me from delaying so much..
i started today...

get all the materials..
sister helped me...
blablabla..
cut off the process...

result is...
not so bad the taste,
accidentally burnt two trays..
biscuit quite hard..

not so satisfied..
but i will try harder next time...
=)

this one....
extra so my niece made it...=D

she brought to her tuition centre..lol

yes...
it "kembang" until liek that..
supposed to be ROUND but turned out square..
lol...
the whatever pattern i did all gone..
apala~~~

tmr out with dear...
FINALLYYYY!!!!!!
=D

~end~

lalala....yes...im to blame...T_T

2009-10-30T23:27:00.004+08:00

watch out!
a wordy and boring post!!

argh!!!

today i really feel like blogging...
to tell all the "first time" happened on me in these few days..

first time went college and had group study with friends,
first time sitting weng loong's car,
first time sitting ivan's car..
so all these are just some common but new experiences..

what i really wanna tell is that the bad and some good things that happened..

yesterday...
my FIRST TIME witnessed an car accident,
not like really witness how it happens,
but after i heard a loud bang,
ran out from the house,
and i saw a car...
turned side on the road..
was really shocked as it happened just few doors away!
and guessed what!
a Myvi got bang and the front part was dented..
and it slipped to the next house's front door..
and also an old car got banged by the car too..
how unlucky was that!
luckily the people in the car had no injuries..
but it was the driver's fault,
as he was drunk...

well,
although that has got ntg to do with me,
but it was my FIRST time to witness a car accident so near...
>.<
FIRST time of me sleeping so short just for exam..
last time i did that too but i slept longer..
it's not a good thing for sleeping soooooooo little right...

yes i do get hyped up in the morning...
yet i got frustrated in the afternoon...
blame me...
not enough sleep = mood swing 200%!!
seriously...
it's just not a right thing to do...
and i really think that i shouldn't talk so much...
somehow,
annoying...
cuz i just dun say the good thing...

talk about some happy stuff?
finished exam!
and FIRST time went steamboat with classmates!
like seriously...
and i did enjoy it very much...
but i didnt eat until super full though..
busy for pictures...

yea...
and that seemed happy right...
bad thing just dun let go of me..
decided to go home at 10++

so we happily walked to the car..
and i realize,
the back window...
got HOLE!!
yes..
that's right..
the window got broken..
i put my bag in the car...
how stupid...
FIRST TIME experiencing this kind of stuff...
not my car but friend's car!
how troublesome i am!
causing her got scolded made me feel even more bad...
(although everyone even my friend told me dun need to blame myself but still)

actually i got a feeling that i dun want to go at first,
but after that decided to go,
cuz since i promised that dun wan to break the promise..
but heck!
if i dun go den ntg will happen!

i go i get to interact with friends of cuz..
but if i go and eventually causing trouble to others..
i would i rather im all alone...
because all my friends are so nice to us when the incident happened..
it made me feel touched yet...
feeling SO bad...
mixed feelings..

and after today...
i really need to thank all of them as they immediately went to the spot and helped us...

fikri, kok han, vinod, timo, faez, bobby, praveent, ivan, kiru, weng loong, yika, michelle, su wern...
(not sure if i missed out anyone..)

really thanks to all of u...
hearts you guys so much seriously...
and sorry to scare all of u..
the "aggressive" girl became so stupid today...

and yea,
not forgetting,
suang for not blaming me at all and irene!!
and c shim also...
being so concern toward us...
really glad to have u guys as friends...

ahh..
im being very...
long winded..
but i really think that its a must...

afterall,
its not completely an emo post....

=]

~end~

lalala...done!

2009-10-21T22:57:00.004+08:00

im done for my psychology presentation!
hooray!!!
but i have done something really really wrong..
god..
silly mistakes..
argh~!

but reli i feel this is the first time i get well prepared~
because i rehearsed in front of the mirror before going class..
lol..
first time...
and i think prepare before presentation is reli works..
maybe i shall be more hardworking next time~
=P

ignore me like seriously..
so ugly...
=.=...
like one big fat aunty only la me...

den after that waited for suang at the entrance of INTI...
chat alot alot with friends...
hahaha...
nice chatting session actually...

and yes..
im aggressive..
LOL...
not i wan to have such attitude but hey~
im just use to it lar fikri~
too bad the "dunno-who-u-mean" said dun like my attitude..
XD...

ok la..
i try to change la..
LOL...
to more feminine?
but U WONT LIKE IT MAN~
hahahha...

took a pic with kok han...

look at my hair!
this shows that..
entrance of INTI has very very very strong wind~

i literally forgot wat i wanna blog about...
i wanted to thank someone for something but i forgot what and who is that...
lol...

alright...
shall go to sleep..
im tired already~

night ppl!

muacks!

wish me luck for tmr comm law presentation!

~end~

lalala...pictures~

2009-10-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

ntg much...
just four pictures uploaded~

took this during law class...
haha...
with the "executive" and the "third party"..
=p

me with the "CEO" and also another "third party"~

and the gay partner in my class..
LOL..
*just joking*

another one..
=p...

just for the sake of putting some pictures in my blog...
lol...

i will upload pictures again...
=D

~end~

lalala...what is the title for today?

2009-10-16T00:15:00.005+08:00

i had my psychology test today...
=.=..
i missed out something and...
i wrote the wrong thing...
sigh...
shall work harder for next one...
gambatte!!

by the way,
i went post office today...
wanted to post something..
and know what...
i forgot to bring th envelope alone which i need the add on it..
=.=..
luckily fren was there to help me...
tell me the add on phone...
thanks ya ivan..
lol...

oh ya...
wanna thanks kok han for teman me to post office also..
but hey!
i teman him study also...
XD...
prosocial behaviour~
XD...

i forgot wat i wanted to blog...
hhaha...
nvm lar..
im still thinking how do i make my blog..
erm...
more entertaining...
still trying...

*******************************edited********************************

i remembered what i wanna blog ad...
i yelled in the class yesterday(15/10)
why?
i also dunno...
the volume just came out as loud as i talk...
i heard the class was too noisy and i tried to make them hear what i say...
so i guessed thats what made me so loud...
the whole class looked at me with the stunned face..
lol...
i also shocked...
but luckily...
they din mind...
if not...
i also dunno how~~
T_T

*********************************************************

ok la~
go sleep first~

night~

im in love with yu haoming..
very much now~!
summor his new songs releasing~~
woohoo~
dam nice la!!
tell me..
how can i resist?
hahahahahahhaa....

ok lar..
reli going off...

bye...

~end~

lalala...sorry..

2009-10-13T18:17:00.002+08:00

sorry i haven been update for quite some time again...
seriously got ntg much to update about...
got my psychology test marks today...
quite okay...
reli thanks to Su Wern for helping me in that...
i wont score so well if it wasnt u who help...
thanks!^^

sometimes i think...
i reli shud just keep quiet and not talk anything...
just to avoid myself from thinking too much..
that if i have done anything wrong...
but sometimes not talking also might be wrong heh?
>.<

what is right and what is wrong?

its just so difficult now....

ps: im not emo...
i think~
=)

~end~

lalala...hmmm...

2009-10-08T19:46:00.002+08:00

get my assignment mark today...
better than what i have expected for the very first time...
i used to get marks lower than the limit of acceptance...
lol..
although i know i deserve lower marks...
i feel that,
i reli disappoint lecturer with my marks...
test's marks i mean...
haih...
feel so bad...

finished comm law test also today...
lol...
screwed it also...
bad english i speak~
i know~
most of the ques,
i know abit..
dunno abit...
>.<...

i miss my dear...!
for so many weeks never see him ad!
=(...
too bad lar all the projects and stuff make me dun dare to go out...
haih...
when can i see u?

just a short update...

=p

~end~

lalala...i love ASTRO...

2009-10-06T17:38:00.004+08:00

hmmmm...
previously said that i din go to bukit jalil to redeem my ticket..
therefore i tot the ticket will just give to someone else...
but den i was wrong!
hahaha...

Astro purposely sent it to my hse~~
cheeehh..
as if they din send to other people..
but hey!
it's been very long since i have won a prize...
like seriously!
as i cant blog a nice post to win any award from NN..
i suck at thinking slogan and stuff..
im just noob at these...

so yea~
im dam happy ad since i have got these 2 tickets!
wheee...
gonna watch it with mummy...
since she is interested at this movie~~

btw..
below are the pictures~~=D

see that see that?
hehehe...
GDEX~
proudnya~
hehehe...
*am ss-ing*

TADA~~
two tickets!=)

the closer look...
=p...

and ya!
i finally passed up my media issue assignment...
i was blurred with what i have done so yea...
the grade wont be good...
hehehe....

next week will be a busy week...
cecilia...
gambateh...
u can survive in this exactly 13 days for classes!

gonna get some rest...
im reli tired...
bb
=)

~end~

lalala...screwed~

2009-10-01T19:27:00.002+08:00

i screwed my test today...
sigh...
badly...
i mean i did read thru and i ASSUMED i can understand..
but at the same time,
i know i wont be able to remember much about the definition..
and yes..
i was right..
i forgot like 60 percent of it...
sheesh~!
how stupid that could be...
sure disappoint my lecturer...
which i reli din want to...
=(..
im so sorry...

but theres things that i shud be happy of..
which is i got free tix for the movie "ACCIDENT"...
by Astro...
hehe...
its the second time i have won something from Astro.
first time was when i was standard 5..
haha..
i have won a mini disctionary..
XD..
by the way..
thanks ASTRO!
love u always..
hahaha...

BUT THEN...
i still not sure...
if i got to go there..
one prob..
transport...
shit betul la...
aiks...
happy at first but got problem pulak...
argh!!
i wanna go BUKIT JALIL!!!
=(

~end~

lalala...guest blogger is here today~

2009-09-28T22:38:00.003+08:00

when i was chit chatting with my china frens,
suddenly msn msg came in, a fren of mine was totally in anger and she requested me for pinjam-ing her my blog to post about her...feelings..
so here it is...hehehe...
*seriously not me lar~*
she is my guest blogger...hahha...

I wanna blog!
Blog bout you - THE TWO-FACED DEVIL who always talk c*ck sing song and bullsh*tting around!
It's unfair to judge a person without knowing the person yet. F**k Off you B*T*H!
Thanks for all that you have done for me and that's what you called care about me!
Now i know how much you care for me till you want others to care about me as well by talking bad bout me and making others to have bad impression on me!
Thanks, because this is the way to show ppl how good you are in treating the person that "you cared most" ,
and the person whom you cared most is always treating you bad by trying to say good things bout you when others judeged you.
Oh now i know that this is the way to show your appreciation and that's why you said i don't appreciate you right,
just because i didnt tell others how bad you are in treating me instead of telling ppl how good you are.
Thanks alot.
I learned alot from you, I should tell ppl that how bad you are in treating me because this is the way to show you that i care and i appreciate for all that you've done to me.
If you're hoping for a good return please don't say that you're sincere because that makes me feel like puking in front of you.
You've acted alot, ugly bitch.
Oh the ugly truth, i should learn to accept it.
I feel like strangle you til you die and never appear in my life anymore.
How can you keep telling ppl around you that i'm treating you very bad?
what have i done that makes you think so?
just because you love me, care for me and you're expecting the same good return from me?
Is this what you call sincerity?
and if you're willingly to do, so dont complain so much.
What are you trying to do?
I really didnt know how well you can act like infront of me by keep telling me that how much you care for me and how much i meant to you while on the other hand you keep telling ppl that how bad i was?
Ppl who dont know me tends to have bad impression on me without even knowing me they can judge me that way and yeah thanks alot for spreading it continuosly.
Is that coincident that you're close to ppl who are close to me?
And even if they're close to me, what is your intention to tell others bout me and told them how bad was i?
i just dont know why and what makes you think that i treat you bad when i have already given in so much.
Even i'm close to the friend of mine and so you are, why must you always mention bout me?
and yeah my best friends all left me?
is this what you're trying to do and proof to ppl that i've some attitude problems till ppl want to leave me?
Open your eyes big enough to see whether ppl leave me or i choose to leave ppl?
I always choose to keep things to myself and keep quiet and this is what i got.
It's a descrimination to me.
It hurts to know that you think that i don't know how to appreciate you when you're around, when you're not around only i appreciate you?
i dont need you to teach me.
I appreciated you so much even b4 and after but all you know is just to blame on me.
I just don't understand why and why ppl around me who always claimed that they love and care bout me will end up doing all this to me?
i wonders why? why why?
When i always tell ppl how important you are to me, how good can you be, and this is what i deserve to get from you by telling how bad am i to others till others start to doubt me and place prejudice towards me.
If thats the case I prefer you not to love me and care for me.
i prefer you to love me like your friends.No its not up to what i decide, but why do you love me then?
whats the point of loving me then hate me? if you know you're gonna do all this to me, stay away from me.
i dont need your fake love just to show ppl how loyal can you be.
You're not at all, flirting all the way you want.
Did i ever be close to your new friends and start to talk bad bout you?
I still try to clear their doubts bout you, you know?
I just cant be as evil as you la! I surrender can?
Can you like f**k off from my life?
why is it so hard to just be friends?
why must always have to face problems like this?
why will i have friend like you? why?
i just don't understand.
I just thought that i should mend it all back and blame everything on myself to make you feel better, you dont appreciate it nevermind and i even have already not keeping in touch with you, why must you keep creating all this shits to me?
To grab my attention? i'm such a failure to not be bothered!
I hate all of you and especially you.
You're the TWO-FACED DEVIL!
How i wish to tell the whole wide world but i'm just not like you. I can't. Failure I am.
I HAVE ALREADY DISAPPEARED IN YOUR LIFE FOR LONG AND WHY MUST YOU KEEP STEPPING IN AGAIN TO MY LIFE?
ARE YOU REALLY WANTING ME TO DIE IN FRONT OF YOU AND YOU CAN OWN ME TOTALLY?
I cant be this stupid.
I must tell myself to stay strong.
I hope that i can just fall down somewhere or knock by a car so that when i wake up,
all my memory with you all can be erased and i wont be bother much bout all this shits.
I'm praying for that.
I MUST LEARN NOT TO CARE BOUT PPL LIKE HOW I USED TO CARE BOUT OTHERS cos then i will just get hurt.
I have had enough already.
Thanks!
I MUST BE HAPPY AND NOT TO GIVE UP LIFE EASILY. I MUST NOT GIVE YOU ANY CHANCE TO PROVE YOU RIGHT. THANKS!

** Thanks to cecilia to allow me to rant here! Appreciate it so much! **
** There're more to come ** gonna blog in chinese **
** Thanks in advanced first cecilia **

lalala...im totally good for ntg!!

2009-09-24T21:33:00.003+08:00

argh...
being emo all over again...
its not because of others...
its ME...
MEEEEEE!
the useless one!

i dun understand....
how can i procrastinate things like that?!
i m enjoying my holiday YET im totally wasting time...
T_T...

wat feelings is that now?!
conflict in myself...
zzzzzzzz...
totally hate that!
angel and evil are fighting?
zzzzzzz....
in the end...
i feel like im a psycho...
stuck between good and bad...
the feeling SUCKS like dunno wat!
>.<

crapping all the away...
sorry for being emo....
=(

~end~

lalala...i abandon my bloggie again~

2009-09-22T11:49:00.003+08:00

look...
i abandon my blog again...
dull life huh~
lol...

im a homey person...
SOMETIMES...
i can watch tv show the WHOLE day at home...
hehe...
i bet many ppl can do so laa...
just finished D.I.E B yesterday...
from around 12 oclock started watching till 2 am...
=ppp...
im a tv freak totally...

oh btw,
jie jie shifted hse...
somewhere near me..
haha...
so i will be changing to her room...
heck the room now is full of CUPBOARDS!!
the room is so small now...
=(...

ahh nvm...
wonder if i wanna go sing k later...
and also fren asked me out to sing k also...
dunno wan to go onot...

haven started my assignments...
i need guidance...
=(...

sometimes....

i just wonder....

hmmmmmm......

oh well,
a very important fren did this for me...
hahha...
very cute rite?
but i dunno how to do..
ahaha...
=p....

i dunno wat else to write...

ps: tell me..
what u wan me to do.......
OR
what should i do?

~end~

lalala...dun blame it on me...

2009-09-17T19:27:00.004+08:00

i knew it was not right for reacted that way nor thought that way...
so i tried...

i have put the effort...
but it wasn't appreciated...
i took the initiative...
i know...
not like i wanna blame...
but at least i tried...
and nobody accepts...

so...
no one can ever blame it on me...
i suppose...

i gave it a try...
seriously i know i did...
because what i think was...
i would react this way,
because i care...
so i shud give in...
as no one can stand my temper like how my family does..
so to blend myself in the society,
i need to take the initiative...
and so i really did...

come on...
i know what was i doing...
i know things happened weren't right...
i know it was wrong...
i know i have to make a change....
i know i did...
so i GUESS,
i'm not to blame...
right?

oh btw,
i dun wanna make my blog an emo blog...
lets blog about class today~!
psychology!
fuh...
i know..
i always use impact bias...
hahaha..
seriously weih...
its like erm...
i will overestimate/over dramatize a situation...
haha...
thats what happened to me always lar...
i take small things seriously...
its not a good thing...
tsk tsk tsk...
and thats why i tried to take the initiative...
=X..
it's like a light bulb popped up when Ms M said so...
but yeah...
no diff...
so...

=)...

and law today was...
alright..
still dun understand about the law...
=(...

tomorrow gonna watch movie in class!
lol...
its not a good thing when u think of wat u have to do after the movie...
analyze!!!

crack my brain but got ntg~

i give up in trying to blog a good post today...

so.....
again....

nite~!

~end~

lalala...what?

2009-09-16T17:46:00.002+08:00

owh...
every monday from next next week onwards...
we'll have to hand in assignments....
until final starts something like that...
@@
do until i sot...

feel great when i finished homework before due date...
need not worry at all...
seriously...
the feeling is like...
cant be described...

well...
i always feel that...
no matter it is blogging or the reality..
im the same...
no being dramatic in both..
OR..
being dramatic in both...
thats for the people to judge...

i always feel that...
from the very beginning...
im like that,
until now...
im like that too...
maybe i have changed a lil...
but seriously...
im still the..
problematic me...

but of cuz,
compared to reality,
i wont blog much about my thoughts that much...
its too...
public...

i always tell myself,
friends come and go...
thats the principle la...
its my problem i guess..
i dun get along with ppl very well...
shit right?
me i mean...
=.=..
i have attitude problem...
lol...

and i do think alot alot until i find myself a bit...
too sensitive...
since young i m like that...
thats why..
i dun tell ppl about that...
only him..
because it is too embarrassing to tell...

how do u go like...
eh u dun like me ar?
eh i done wrong ar?
try to ask ppl around u are they feeling this way to u...
EVERYTIME when u feel like it...
den really u will make them dun like u laaaaaa...
lol..
self fulfilling prophecy...

i dunno leh...
dun like it when im behaving this way...
but...
reli it is hard to change...
=.=...

blah...
dun wan to write ad...

bye!

~end~

lalala...study date with baby!=DD

2009-09-12T22:18:00.005+08:00

early morning woke up and got myself ready...
simply because i was going out with baby today!
hehehe...
so happay~

sis sent me to the ktm station after i had done preparing...
and luckily,
the ktm came QUITE on time~
so i reached pyramid quite early...
but daniel lim was late!

he was the one who said wanted to go out early..
in the end he reached only at 11++...
haih suan le lor~
den after we purchased the movie tix,
we went somewhere and sit down and started doing my assignment.
LOL...

din do much also as i wasnt in the mood for that...
u know...
so called "study date" la...
but it is still a pak toh day...
after so long no meet leh!
heart also fly to him ad...
where got time for that la~
*i know i should not feel this way~but.....=(*

and dear was so sweet as he got me famous amos cookies because he knew that i like to eat..
hehe...
told him once and he remembered...
=))
but i think he got the wrong flavour one...
hehehe...
=p...

well after that we went and watch the movie...
the ugly truth...

another funny movie i can say...
there were few scenes that make all the audiences laughed...
worth it though~

i wanna watch where got ghost!!!!
but no time lah today...
ish....

well...
after the movie,
we went kim gary to makan...
gosh i had ordered the wrong food!
couldnt finish it!
ish ish ish...
so dam full after that...

because of we both were very full,
instead of going starbucks continue my work,
we decided to walk around first...
we tot of taking sticker pictures but in the end we gave up...
because both of us arent good at posing...
lol...
if no pose den wasted lar rite?
so we saved it for next time...
=P...

then we headed to starbucks,
after baby redeemed his coffee,
we started to do again the assignment,
well din do much also only finding information ..
because i said i will read after back home...

plus today reli short of time as sister told me if i dun go back earlier,
i wud have to walk home...
actually from the bus stop walk home is fine,
but at night?
better not risk my life...
even though i din bring much money out,
but the robber wouldnt know...
OMG..
*choi choi choi!!!!*
*slaps my mouth!!*
well i mean....
err...
nvm...
in the end i still made it by going back earlier...
so sis fetched me back~
*PHEW~!*

continue...
so after saving all the information,
we called it a day lor...

today the bus driver so funny,
i dun have small change so he said he pay for me first..
den i return him next time..
i was like HUH?
how to return u next time?
lol...
luckily dear was still there and he paid for me before the bus left...
if not i will die of guiltiness for not returning the money to the bus driver!
@@"

i like this pic~
hehe...

all these taken with my lappie,
thats why low quality...
there are alot more though...
just that all same position diff facial expression only...
but i still like it!
=*

dear i started missing u already!
but next meeting up will be long...
as u will be having finals soon and so do i will be busy for this short sem...
sigh...=(

hmmm...
we jia you together gether ok?
=)

im lucky to have u....=)

~end~

lalala....i have problem in thinking title..=.=

2009-09-09T19:33:00.004+08:00

assignments start piling up...
no i din procrastinate this time...
simply because short sem is meant to be like this....
and when u are clueless on how to start it but u wan to finish them fast...
the feeling sucks...

not ranting on the subjects are hard...
only thing to complain is that my english sucks..
feel so restricted to express what i want to express in the first place...
when u have so limited vocabulary...
u face a problem in writing a good essay...

i have 2 questions of comm law to do today...
only 2 questions...
but took me so long to do...
to find information...
to read articles...
and now i still haven finish...
plus,
it is only class exercise,
which is needed by tmr...
if not,
i would have been doing research on my assignment now...
sigh...

comm law is so dam hard...
when it is the subject during short sem,
it is much harder..
try to cram all the political,law and facts into ur brain in 7 weeks...
need me to tell more?
definitely not easy...
especially when im not genius...
having problem in english and politics knowledge is like soooo little...

not only comm law,
media issue is another killer...
its about the same as comm law..
for media issue i need to read really plenty of journals to understand the issues in media..
so that points can be easily given out to strengthen whatever topic or theory or even concept is asked...

it is supposed to be a sem 3 subject,
but why on earth sem 2 is taking it?
i really dunno...

well...
i know even though my english is poor,
but i have no excuse to slack but to be more hardworking than the others...
this is the only way to survive,
of cuz i understand this concept...
and i cant just use one sentence "im lazy" to push off all my responsibilities..
because if im lazy and i din plan to change,
den im to blame...
not saying that im superb hardworking now...
but at least,
im hoping for a change...
in myself...
=)

better continue my hw now...
bye...

~end~

lalala...what to blog?

2009-09-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

got ntg special happen lately...

oh ya,
im not working during this sem as i want to concentrate more in the three tough subejcts..
(lol,kononnya focus huh~XD)
but i feel bad for not doing the job,
as once i left,
theres no "helper"
(i rather call myself helper than teacher lar)
to teach the students homework ad...
i mean..
still got the teachers lar
but it makes their life harder only...
feel so guilty..

but reli lor,
its freaking tired after class,
i dun wan to bring my tired mode to the class,
and if they done anything wrong,
i scared i will scold them up to the ceiling...
im that scary okaay~~

something happened and i dun really like it...
its just so hard to express it out...
im not those that can say watever i want,
coward u can call lar..
but its true that u need to pay for watever u have said...
what goes around comes around?
thats wat dear taught me...
=D

recently i have discovered that im kinda good for ntg...
lol..
pathetic rite..

need to upgrade myself...
at least until im good for something?
at least one?

oh..
theres also one thing that i found that it is quite true is that

when u are pointing one person with one of ur fingers,
please remember that,
there are still 3 fingers will be pointing at urself...

i must remember this also...

because im so not perfect,
so when i criticize others,
i really need to think that,
did i do the same thing also?
if i did,
i have got no right at all to complain...

this is one thing i need to change about myself...
which is thing that really hard to change also...
hahaha...
but trying hard lar...

i have a new header again...
this one is i stole from a blog of a fans of haoming..
=p..
it is nice rite?
hehehe

i love u more and more each day...
<3

~end~

lalala..i hate my new timetable

2009-09-03T21:43:00.004+08:00

i wonder why am i gaining weight SO FAST...
like seriously very fast...

and from chubby to abit plum plum den i think im turning into the fat category already..
omg...
why lar...
i dun wan to be so fat...

but i just dun have strong determination to control my eating habit...
T_T..
im just lack of it...
omg omg...
i need determination so much...
for diet or even studies...
determination...
come find me pls~T_T

i dun wanna be like last time...
nightmare....
fuh~

alright alright ignore that...
>.<
lets talk about my timetable...
omg i hate it alot weih...
its like sooooo suc*...
!@#$%^&*()_+

4 days 8 am class...
den one of them is 8 to 6..
OMG..
>..<

i seriously dislike it!
everyday also will be having headache...
will never miss out...
sigh~

other than that..
classes are all alright...
strict lecturer,
funny lecturer,
and last sem lecturer..

social psychology is interesting yet....
hard?

comm law is fun yet...
BORING?

media issues is...
so not my thing...
sigh...

gotta read more newspaper to know more about the politic in Malaysia...
as well as the issues in Malaysia...
if not, get ready to fail in media issues and comm law la!
T_T

classmates slowly turning back like last sem...
as last time m1 students mostly changed to m2..
not so good huh?
din get to interact with more ppl...
most of them are so good in english...
stress also when i talk with them...
no joke...
>.<

oh btw,
im so lack of self confidence and i really dunno why...
i just cant talk in front of the class..
*cries*

need to buck up in my studies...

i dun wanna fail..

i hope i can achieve wat i wan!

~end~

lalala....new header!

2009-08-31T19:52:00.003+08:00

err...
it doesnt look as good as i expected...
ala..
first time making header by myself...
i know its very bad...
>.<
its not the pic bad..
but the technique of doing the header larr~
the person in the pic look so cute!=D

he is my idol...
=PPP
im a china girl fyi~
hahaha...=p

i wanna make more headers actually..
but now my lappy doesnt have the photoshop program...
so i cant do anything...
wait until i install the program i will learn how to make nicer header...
im totally/completely a computer nooooooob...
serious...

if anyone really cannot tahan my header...
and dun mind to make one for me...
heheheh...
leave me a comment...
=PPPP

~end~

lalala...out with baby again...hehe

2009-08-30T22:28:00.007+08:00

[pic taken from ：http://www.foreverlovetvb.blogspot.com/］

sat i went out with dear again...
weeee...
last outing before college life starts...
and i think after this we dun have much time to meet each other ad..
as he will be having exam soon...
and when he is on sem break,
i might be having exams~
=(((

alright dun talk about sad stuff...
we watched two movies yesterday...=)
sophie's revenge and laughing gor...
the first movie was ok...
it is the simple love story of a girl..
and they exaggerated something of the story lar...
not so bad if u ask me...
=)...
laughing gor...
fuh best la~
hahaha...
it is a cantonese movie..
i remembered the girl beside me,
when she saw the "tvb" logo..
den she asked :

tvb?
is it like cantonese movie?

den right after she said that,
the movie started with people talking cantonese..
and she laughed..
lol...
hmmm..
the story of this movie is very creative,
the UC(undercover cop) in the black society is actually the undercover ones of the "dai lou" in the cop team...
how complicated huh~~~

well...
reli love going out with dear...
as he never failed to make me laugh..
angry also...
>.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_x5xA4V6RKNc/SpqT2mplM9I/AAAAAAAABuQ/CT6sfjGID5U/s1600-h/DSC03611.JPG">looks like im forcing him to take pic only...=D

dear looks so cute..
hahaha...
muacks!

i dun look good in the pic...
so yea...=P...
but dear looks very good...
lalala...
^^

in gasoline...
so dark the lighting...

hmmm..
i haven enroll yet...
gg lar...
if different class with frens den i reli wanna cry ad..
but i seriously dislike the new timetable...
its soooooo yucky!
4 days 8 am class...
2 days 6pm finish class...
omg...
how to stand that huh?!
grrr...

btw,
i hope for this new sem,
i can be better...
in terms of everything...
studies,
friendships,
and so on............

~end~

lalala..GI JOE!

2009-08-28T00:06:00.004+08:00

seriously this show best la!!
i like it very much....
keep asking ppl around me to watch...
lol...

but of cuz...
diff ppl diff point of view...
some ppl might think that it's not nice la~
but my frens who watched this movie also agreed with my opinion...
so..
i think it is reli nice and worth to watch..
haha...
maybe im abit late lar...
i forgot when this movie is released..
but i think for quite some time ad..
and the cinema today was kinda full also...
i have a fren who watched for two times..
lol...
he is waiting for second part..
lol....
XD

ok lar...
ntg much to update...

had fun going out with dear..
heheh...
well i always love going out with him...
but too bad...
the busy man doesnt have much time to "layan" me..
hahaha...
but today he took leave to gai gai with me...
=)...
love ya dear!
muacks!

~end~

lalala...七夕情人节~

2009-08-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

today is the chinese valentine's day...
err...
i guess so it is...
its the day for "niu lang" and "zhi nv" to meet on the bridge...
i dunno how to say that in english...
hahaha..

well..
ntg special happened today...
i watched tv the whole day and den i walked to work...
zzz..
den i was having stomachache in the class room...
shiat man...
den finally cannot stand it so got my sis to picked me up at 6 o'clock...
wat a day~~
headache also...
legs pain...
stomach ache...
sheeeesh...
geram sial...

jia xin asked me to talk about my students...
but i dun have much thing to talk about them...
of cuz there are always good and not so good students...
but since im not an official teacher,
so not good for me to give too many comments on them...
hahah...

took 2 of my students' pic..
hahaha...
got funny one lar..
but better not post them here haha...

today's post is totally a piece of crap...
just for the sake of pushing down the pic of the orphan...
LOL...

thats all lar guys..

oh well..
results is out...
not bad la..
but still not good yet...
=)..

~end~

lalala...chinese?

2009-08-25T23:47:00.002+08:00

i am wondering...
there are so many ppl blogging in english...
of cuz there are also ppl who blog in chinese,
but in the innit world,
how many ppl can actually understand,
i mean read chinese?

its a very simple question that i wanted to know very long ago...
perhaps ppl find that chinese is very hard to type and yes,
those can read chinese might not be that good in it..
but perhaps they are much better in english language...
so they prefer to blog in english rite?

but do you guys read chinese?
will you feel like this - @@ when u are reading some chinese articles?

mind telling me???
hehe

erm..
curiosity makes me blog about this and post it up on innit again..
after soooooooo long...
=S

thanks for reading ppl...

goodnight....

~end~

lalala...movie~

2009-08-25T12:10:00.006+08:00

ok i was too free yesterday huh?
so i asked clement to watch movie with me at night..
lol...
my first time going out for movie so late with FRIEND la..
actually was kinda bad mood yesterday,
so i tot of going out to...
distress maybe?

so me and him headed to bukit raja jusco,
since its the nearest cinema..
den there was only 2 movies for us to choose,
one is UP,
another one is ORPHAN,
and since that fella said : watch orphan la watch orphan lar...
fine~
den we go for orphan...

and seriously,
listening to him is the wrong decision i have made!
as i tot it wont be TOO horror type of movie
but i was wrong!
this movie is scary lar dei...
especially at night 10.30 watch...
that kind of feeling...
omg...
can u imagine?

not good in explaining the story of the movie,
but i try~

the girl esther has been adopted by john and kate,
she always shows good behavior when john is around.
slowly, she begins to make troubles..
these make kate feels that she has some attitude problems,
however, no one trusts her,
even john, the husband..
one day, sis abigail visited their house and told them about esther,
she thinks that esther has some problems.
and after a few days she left the house,
she is found dead in the place that near to kate's house,
this incident causes kate to suspect about esther even more..
one day, kate found out that the bible of esther came from a place named Sarnee Institute,
so she called them and asked about esther,
the guy told kate that the girl is not from there,
even before kate tells him the name..
the guy den told kate,
sarnee institute is not an orphanage,
but a mental hospital~!

fuh!
chi gek movie...
not bad...
despite it is very scary lar...
the story and everything is good..
in my opinion at least..

scary kan?
imagine when u are sleeping and someone is looking
no,
staring at you like that...
walao...
geli sial...

seriously,
no more scary movie lar...
at least not at night...
my heart cannot take it...
fuh~
i must be the one who make decision next time~~
at least if regret also can blame on no one....

for those who likes horror movie,
it is worth to watch this...

im not good at explaining or persuading...
if i make u dun feel like watching the movie...
im sorry...
=(

oh well,
"up" is the movie i wanna watch next...
i know its good/awesome/wonderful or whatever it is..
i know...
dun need to tell me anymore~~
i will watch it la~~~
=P

~end~

lalala...holiday is here!

2009-08-19T00:30:00.005+08:00

yeap...
its the....
5th day of holiday...
only 2 weeks short break...
well,
not really a break for me as i still have to work...
yea...
its not a very high pay job,
to be exact,
its quite low pay job..
but somehow i do enjoy working over there..
work with kids aint easy huh~
u cant scold them...that much~
haha...
but yea...
its still quite fun larh...
hehehe...

by the way..
went out with baby last saturday...
started to miss him already!!
well..
caught two movies with him on that day...
hehe...
009 and the proposal...
i like both of the movies...
nice!
and funny...
=D..

and the funny pig din know that pyramid got 3JC..
he was so excited when he saw the restaurant..
and said he wanted to eat there(like a kid)..
dam cute...
hehe...
aiya im kind of out of vocab now i dunno how to describe about him..
he is just too cute to me....

what was he looking at?

act cool~

looked so tired~kelian...sayang o~

and these are the two pic i took with dear on that day...
hehehe...
<3

actually these few days i spent most of my time doing nothing...
lol..
quite lifeless...
plus got work at 3.30...
the time like hanging so i dun get chances to go out also lar~

k larh...
im out of idea wat to update already...
give me some time and i will try to update something~
hehe...

oh ya...
ppl..
wear mask when u go out rite?
Ah1n1 is getting serious...
dun play play ya~

take care~

~end~

lalala...Im free~

2009-08-14T01:19:00.001+08:00

finally free from finals~~
which means sem 1 is officially ended...
shall enjoy my two weeks break now~
hoho...

will update when im free..
hehehe...

good night ppl~

~end~

lalala...final exam!!

2009-08-05T22:36:00.001+08:00

final exam is coming...

give me a short break from blogging...

and i will be back!

muacksx~

lalala...dead blog is alive!

2009-07-31T17:55:00.007+08:00

alright...
i know my blog isn't famous but i do have some readers who will read my blog~
so that's why i'm here now...
finally handed up all the assignments and done with my presentations..
i screwed it badly...
=(
i tot it wouldn't be so hard but heck...
i was so wrong for thinking like that...

well...
group assignment wasn't easy...
especially mass comm...
i actually noticed something through this assignment..
which is when u are doing the work..
u must show it out...
if not...
ppl might say that u contribute ntg when u are the one doing the most...
and when u din do the work...
pls at least ask wat can u help...
not just sit there and wait...
wtf are u waiting for?
gold to drop from the sky ar?
remember wat is group work...
no one has the right to take things for granted...

just to clarify something...
im not pinpointing anyone..
so dun get me wrong..
if not...
there comes the conflict...@@

i just wanna tell whoever that involve in group work..
pls understand ur position as well as others..
when u do not have any work..
pls offer to help...
even if really ntg to do...
dei at least fake abit say u wan help laa...
i bet everyone will be more comfortable after knowing that u AT LEAST have the heart to help tho...

well...
final is like...
next week?
god...
so not use to the fast pace in college...
3 months then final...
its like so important...
and im still so unprepared...
wth...

cecilia soo..
cant u be abit more hardworking?
seriously u better get urself to study...
or else...
the one who regret will be u also..
not others...

sigh...
study study~~
i will try...

looking forward for sem break...
yet..
not really also...
i wont be having "real" break though...
still got things to do...
aiks...

oh well..
went out with dear last saturday..
not really happy with it because dun really have much time to spent...
it was like...
so fast...=(
we watched "OBSESSED" as the movie of the day...
err...
actually to me...
so so only~
kena tipu by the trailer...
zzz..

dear said "THE PROPOSAL" seems nice...
at first i dun think so...
but after i watched the trailer...
im now looking forward to watch this movie...
yea~
trailer again...
=P..
wat to do...
isnt that the only way to know more about those coming soon movies?
hehehe...
and also overheard...
i think it would be nice also...
and erm.....
one more chinese movie...
starred by louis ku if im not wrong...
a comedy as i know...
and also...
final destination?
wheee...
so many movies on my "must-watch" list already...
but i wonder do i really have the time...
need to watch my idol's drama also...
(but that one from youtube)
lol...
i like china artist u know...
so china girl right...
yea~~
hehe...

oh ya,

dear and i makan at the new fast food restaurant - POPEYE...

(i hope i make no mistake about the name)

i like the chicken there~

better than erm...

K*C

but its abit oily lar...

ABIT BIT only....

=D...

and of cuz!

i dun wan to miss a chance to take pic with dear!

hehehehe

dear was trying hard to make his eyes bigger~
lalala..

okaaaay~~i dunno why i look so horrible here...>.<>

#1..
not SO gay laa~
hahhaa

#2
dear said this pic not bad...
actually...
true also hor~=P

dang dang dang dang!!!!
this is the gay-est pic of the day!!
XD
*dear u know i love u right?hehehehehehhe*

oh and den right...
we walked around in pyramid and saw the charity drive something by A cut Above academy...
so mr daniel lim decided to go and have a haircut for himself...
YET...
he was worrying if the haircut wud be nice...
and as wat i expected...
he din like it...
=.=

sudah started mm song de mr lim~~

and he still claimed that he TRYING hard to not show that he mm song...
see also know u dun like it lar mr lim....
ish!!

and yes...
time passed dam fast..
after the hair cut...
he had to go home...
=(...
den we together gether to take bus...
traffic was very jam...
u know..
subang~
around 6-7pm summor...
expected..
but we din wait too long...
both buses came together...
=)
and that the end of our date last sat...
im waiting for the next date~~
hehehe

last pic of the day~

ps: i update my blog ad laa ppl~~~
hehehehe

ps: oh ya...do i have any readers from cheras?
actually im looking for a childhood friend...
will be blogging it as the next post...=)

~end~

lalala...a very meaningful song..=)

2009-07-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

its a song recommended by my fren - clement..
well not to say recommend but he asked me to dl for him...
and yes..
when i was listening to it...
i kinda like this song...
after i know about the story behind the song..
i feel touched...
the girl who wrote and sang this song lovynn kan had died..
and she was only 17...

but she had really nice voice and...
this song is really.....
simple and...
meaningful...
=)

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千言万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 (我永远爱你)

心走了去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去却并不容易
生死由天决定不要太伤心

well...
i dunno her..
but i like the song she sang..
its really a great song and she had a great voice too...
i hope she can still live happily in the another world - heaven..
=)...

enjoy ppl...
=)

~end~

lalala...im now at the legal age!loledited

2009-07-15T20:34:00.010+08:00

im officially 18!
on 13th july...
hehehhe...
the day before (12th of july),
bro in law bought me to jusco to get my birthday present...
=)...
a Titus watch...
weehee..
i love it love it...
den dear called me at 12 am to "hog" the line...
hahha...
but neh...
not many ppl want to call me also...
most of them sent me msg...
=)...
well...
da next day i went to skul...
and fren celebrated for me at baker's cottage..
they got me a black forest cake..
awww...
so sweet..
hehe...
den i ate the bread i bought also...
2 pieces..
ok that time was very full ad...
den after that sook mun and the gang went Hakka Lee to had their lunch
(they din eat any bread)
so i helped chea to finish her mee hoon also...
u see!
how could i dun feel full!!!?

we were late for class after that..
so we were like rushing to IT class...
and when we tot the class was already started..
as i entered the class..
another cake was awaiting...@@
the first thing in my mind...
i was very full ad!!
but reli thanks to the class....
u guys love me so much i know!
hahaha

oh ya...
my malaysian studies lecturer bought me chocolate also...
lol...
so nice eh?
hahaha...

at night after i reached home..
i got another cake too!
my favourite...
pandan layer!
hohoho...
i had my family to celebrate for me...
so nice...

this is the first year i got three cakes for birthday...
reli dunno how to describe the feeling..
its simply so great...
i love u my family...
*muacks...*
i love u my baby - daniel lim!
*hearts*
and i love u all my frens!!!!
=DDDD

the black forest

ignore my hair i tell u...=.=

me and pris~

weee...my darling~

siew mun~

OH YA...
AND JIA XIN BOUGHT ME A SLICE OF PANDAN LAYER CAKE...
i tell u once again...
i was REALLY REALLY FULL on that day!!
the FULLEST day of the year man!

me and mun mun!the mashimaro...me the spongebob!lol

me and chea~~priceless expression of her!=)

norh...the second cake~

as what i have told u just now...
the fullest day right?
because right after the second cake celebration
we den went to snowflakes to had our "ice session"..
and wtf the one i ordered was the biggest...
@@
i reli din know that...
and i couldnt finish it!
sorry for the frens who spent me that...
>.< next time i treat u guys back ya~hehehe

me with the ufo aka over over walkie talkie*inside joke*~XD

me and jia xin..waitresses of the day~

now u know why i said its the biggest lar?

me with the DMC gang...
part of them~

my nieces and nephews..
see!
they were so desperate for cutting the cake!
hahaha

they love the camera like i do!
hahaha

my twin twin nieces~

my eldest and elder nieces~

btw....

i couldnt update all the pic of where i taken at home!!!
but only few of them~~!!!
T_T..
my pandan cake~~
pic with my nieces and nephews~~
all cant upload...
haih...
so only a few i uploaded...

and u know wat....
i reli think that i look dam old in all these pic...
@@

but still...
im 18 already!!!!!!!!!!
ahahahhahaha~~

ceci
~signing off~

lalala..im trying hard to blog

2009-07-12T16:30:00.003+08:00

yea..
im trying to blog after so long...
every time i have many things to tell..
but when i think of how to start a post..
i stuck..
thats what caused me din update my blog for so long...
excuse eh?

plus...
updating the same thing with my course-mates is rather lame for me...
because those who will read my post are mostly those in the same class with me...
having blogs and will be updating the same things we experienced..
so..
why make my blog more boring?

and i dun wan to make my blog more lala-ish with those "wu liao" stuff that came across my mind sometimes..
like those emo stuff or watever shit that dun sounds good...
because the way i write..
it wud always turn out to be lala rather than ppl feel that im real emo...
=.=..
i din mean ppl who blog emo stuff means lala...
dun get me wrong!>.< im just saying its my own problem laaaa~

well i should stop crapping ad..
yesterday went yum cha with frens..
secondary skul frens...
very good right?
came all the way from shah alam to klang...
to yum cha with me..
lol..
once in awhile..
it do feels good lar...
=)..
and guess what..
we were laughing all the way and make other ppl changed seat from sitting beside us..
lol..
they just cant stand we talked so loud i guessed...

we gossiped alot..XD
they updated me with many things happened...
no offense but..
blogging is becoming more lala right now...
>.<...
slowly turning into something like friendster (lalas world now)
and facebook also becoming one...
somehow i think ppl telling wat they do in skul..
how to fight with friends..
complaining bout some reli small matters are getting over..
i mean when they take the small matters SERIOUSLY...
for example...
there are ppl actually show their crying pic..
in the blog...
wtf...
ok lar..
its ok to take pic when u cry...
but why post them up?>.<
can i call that...
gek ban ever?
=X..
dun whack me..
i voiced out how i feel...
u can voice out in ur blog too that u think that cecilia is being so bitchy...
IF u wan to admit u are the gek ban...
XD...

ok lar...
shudnt control how ppl feel and how ppl expressed their feelings in their very OWN blog rite?
but ppl are getting funny nowadays...
ppl blog in their own blog...
they go and scold/ complain...
straight to the blogger...
hahaha...
dei..
why so cute one..
if u wan to against watever post u can just write in ur blog mer...
i dun mind to see the blog war actually...
i bet many ppl wants to see it..
haha...
at least last time i experienced once...
among my own friends...
well...
funny memory...
=D...

today's post might be offensive to some ppl..
but seriously i din mean to...
im not against anyone...
but sometimes..
when u feel like blogging...
do consider about the content..
think about the consequences before u blog...
think about how others will think about u when u wan to comment also...
but if u dun care about wat others think about u...
den just go and screw all the blogs that u dislike...
perhaps i might be one of them...
=S...

i know wat am i saying now is being hypocrite..
cuz when i see something i dun like on others blog...
i will complain i will gossip too...
but no..
definitely not straight to the blogger...
cuz i no guts...
>.<

p.s - i know that people will tell me..
if you don't like..
den just dun read da blog
apparently a friend of mine gave me a link straight to a very traumatizing post which made me feel this way..
p.s 2 - this post does not apply to anyone i do not know...
if i offense anyone of u...
i apologize...
sorry....
*sincerely...*
dun screw me pls..
p.s 3 - i have test tmr...but see wat am i doing here...
hahahha...
wish me luck lar ppl~
p.s 4 - i finally updated my blog larh pui yeng!
lol...

ok lar...
going off now...
tell u wat...
tmr is my birthday...XD
haha...
buh bye~

~end~

lalala...taggie~

2009-07-02T20:48:00.002+08:00

so yea...lizzy tagged me..and since i din update my blog for so long...
no harm to do this tag...
hehe...

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: water~
2. Last phone call: sister..to tell me she is coming to fetch me
3. Last text message: dear..
4. Last song you listened to: sorry by Super Junior..XD
5. Last time you cried: erm..i think so..when i was watching drama..xD

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: hmm?
7. Been cheated on: no i guess?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ahh....nope..
9. Lost someone special: nope..=)
10. Been depressed: dun think so...=p
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope...=D..i dun reli drink~

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.Pink
13.Black.
14.Blue.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yea of cuz..a bunch of them...=D
16. Fallen out of love: fallen out?err...no?
17. Laughed until you cried: rarely..laugh until stomachache only
18. Met someone who changed you: belum lagi..
19. Found out who your true friends were: kind of?but still..frens come and go i think..
20. Found out someone was talking about you: why not?everyone loves gossiping!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : girls yea~XD
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: heh?friend list?
23. How many kids do you want to have: if possible,none~xD..but if really have to give a number..1 or 2 den..
24. Do you have any pets: 2 big dogs at home..but not consider as my pet..=P
25. Do you want to change your name: if there's an IF..but its ok laah..since my name make many ppl happy when they call it...
26. What did you do for your last birthday: CHEER 08!!!yea!!haha...and cried like a mad woman in the car!
27. What time did you wake up today: errr...6.15!kesian rite?i got class!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: seeleeep~
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: eh...to finish my assignment?T_T
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just now?when i walked out from the room
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: well..its just something that cannot be change...
32. What are you listening to right now: my niece's crying..
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: tom tom tom...uhm..NO!
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing..
35. Most visited webpage: blogger~
36. Whats your real name: Cecilia Soo Pui Yee
37. Nicknames: ahh please..u dun wan to know
38. Relationship Status: lalala...=D
39. Zodiac sign: Cancer..*winks*
40. Male or female?: ahaa~MALE..O.O..=.=
41. Elementary: Tadika Rainbow.
42. Middle School?: Khe Beng.
43. High school/college?: ICSJ.
44. Hair colour: black and now brown-ish.
45. Long or short: middle length la~
46. Height: 158..T_T
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: i heart my baby..
48. What do you like about yourself?: fuh~definitely not my temper!
49. Piercings: ears
50. Tattoos: nono...i dun like tattoos..its nice but...no..=)
51. Righty or lefty: eh?righty?

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: tarak...never..
53. First piercing: when i was small..
54. First best friend: calrynn..when i was standard 3..lol
55. First sport you joined: sport....badminton?
56. First vacation: walao...cannot remember laah
58. First pair of trainers: erm..
59. Eating: huh?tell me if u could remember..
60. Drinking: milk?
61. I'm about to: Breathe.
62. Listening to:how could i remember wats the first thing i listen too?
63. Waiting on: =.=

YOUR FUTURE :
63. Want kids?: erm...50 50...
65. Get Married?: hehe..ya...
66. Career?: yesh of cuz..i wan it so much

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes!
68. Hugs or kisses: both..=P
69. Shorter or taller: i wan to be taller...
70. Older or Younger: Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: OBVIOUSLY Both.
73. Sensitive or loud: not too much on both..
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationships..
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: i dunno..

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: NO LA!
77. Drank hard liquor: Nope.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: nope
79. Sex on first date: no no no...
80. Broken someone's heart: not that bad i guess? i m not that attractive..
82. Been arrested: lol?
83. Turned someone down: Yes.
84. Cried when someone died: uh huh~
85. Fallen for a friend?: Not really.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: 70-30...>.<
87. Miracles: yea..even if i kind of know that its impossible..
88. Love at first sight: nope...
89. Heaven: i wish there is one..
90. Santa Claus: HOHOHO~when someone is giving present on christmas..he/she is..
91. Kiss on the first date: yes..=S
92. Angels: yea..its good to dream..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: nope...im not that kind..
95. Did you sing today?: nope..too tired..XD
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope...im stupidly good..LOL
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: form1..yesh..let everything starts all over again..

REALISTIC
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: last year?fuh..i dun remember the date..
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: sometimes yea..
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: =.=...what question is this?

i dun tag ppl...=)

lalala...me luv DLKH

2009-06-21T10:31:00.003+08:00

it was an important day for me yesterday..
finally i get to see dear...
after so many weeks din see him...

so yesterday i woke up slightly earlier to prepare something for him..
well i cant cook very well..
so i just prepared sausages and fried egg for him..

since i was following my sister to go..
we left the house at 8,
reached pyramid probably at 9..
waited for an hour plus..
dear finally reached..

intro dear to jie jie...
den we went separated ways...

after that we went for movie..
17 again...
i likey this movie~~
rate it 8/10...
hehehe...
my taste lar...

den had our lunch at McD..
met up with chea and the bf...
caught another movie named
Blood : The Last Vampire..
err..
not bad la~
but i dun reli understand the movie..
haha...

many things happened after the movie...
i dunno how to express it here..
all i wan to say is..
thank u for everything u have done..
i reli appreciate it..
i know im so imperfect..
i cant give u promise that i will change or i can change..
but i truly hope tat i can be better..
because i reli love u..
=)

well..
i took pic today..
i lurve all the pics~
=D

me LURVE this!!!

isnt he cute?=P

haha...he tak layan me..=(

our stunned face..XD

thats all for yesterday...
im hoping for things to be better...
=)

p/s : i love u...

~end~

cecilia

it's all fated..

update + note to self

update..

2 years!! =)

#1 note to self...

what?! it's 2011 already?!

little update

holiday... work...

you are the best i could ever ask for

wake me up when nov ends...

not emo post.. =)

sparky sparky here i come!

there's always rainbow after storm.. =)

feeling bad + field trip

great challenges is queuing up

foooooooood

伯牙絕弦

update update

hoho

one down.. one more~

grrr

random

JOKE!

bad day

spammer

first day of college?

IP MAN 2

love everything of u

adui

i am happy

woooooots

who am i?

人，是怎么一回事？

what a day!!

i'm your sweetheart and no one else's

just for the sake of update~

i know i shouldn't act this way..

2010 + wedding dinner picture on christmas..

十月围城观后感。。。review of Bodyguards And Assassins

my PD trip!=)

i cut my hair~~on last thursday...

lalala....nice song!

R.I.P, Han Yin

oh!my blog is almost dead again!!

it's been so long....

life aint that bad actually~

im not using lalala so often anymore~

lalala...what?

lalala....holiday~!

lalala....yes...im to blame...T_T

lalala...done!

lalala...pictures~

lalala...what is the title for today?

lalala...sorry..

lalala...hmmm...

lalala...i love ASTRO...

lalala...screwed~

lalala...guest blogger is here today~

lalala...im totally good for ntg!!

lalala...i abandon my bloggie again~

lalala...dun blame it on me...

lalala...what?

lalala...study date with baby!=DD

lalala....i have problem in thinking title..=.=

lalala...what to blog?

lalala..i hate my new timetable

lalala....new header!

lalala...out with baby again...hehe

lalala..GI JOE!

lalala...七夕情人节~

lalala...chinese?

lalala...movie~

lalala...holiday is here!

lalala...Im free~

lalala...final exam!!

lalala...dead blog is alive!

lalala...a very meaningful song..=)

lalala...im now at the legal age!lol*edited*

lalala..im trying hard to blog

lalala...im now at the legal age!loledited