Saturday, January 23, 2010

just for the sake of update~



cute, isnt he?
just want to post his pic here...=)

already have assignments waiting for me to start...
yet im still slacking...
argh!
what lar...
i dunno how to do...T_T

script, reviews, featured article...
seems easy but not at all~
the ideas are not coming in...
things just tend to happen EVERTIME i forgot to bring my camera along...
=.=..
why like that one...

stupid vista..
whatever i installed also got blue screen...
how am i going to do my work?!
tell me laaaaa~

actually rite,
i dunno what to update..
ntg special happened to me recently..
maybe got, but i forgot?XD
sorry..
memory getting real bad...

im blogging nonsense...
==..
i will find out something happy to talk about...
soon...
soon....

i try~

=p..







Friday, January 15, 2010

i know i shouldn't act this way..

as far as i went through few blogs of my friends,
i discovered that,
alot ppl are being emo these days..
i wonder why..

even i myself also feeling so..
isn't that brand new year is meant to be better than the previous one?
or its just me,
started to grow up,
think more,
and worried more?

studies wise,
i know,
im not giving my 100%,
i slack like how i usually did in high skul and the passed semester...
i also know,
even if i do,
i give all i can,
im still the good-for-nothing ones...
even when people say im not,
all are only comforting me...
but deep inside my heart,
i know how far i can go...
low self esteem u can call...

i observe around...
and i keep them all to myself and analyse it alone,
i realized,
im so not capable...
i dun handle things well,
i dun handle my emotion well...
i wonder why am i so anti social these days...
i wasnt so back then...
i can talk very much...
but these days,
i cant seems to start any topic randomly...
that makes me feel so bad...

money wise...
oh thats such a big issue...
TO EVERYONE..
i dunno how to talk about that..
i'm trying out something...
but it just doesnt go well...
i share but im not good at it...
am i not convincing enough?
not like i wan success all the time...
but not failing always please...
i cant take it...
thats my own problem...
im such a coward...
what can i do to improve myself?
yea i always knew the answer but why i dun get my ass off to start improving?!

i started to worried..
future...
what am i going to be...
not to say im regret...
but im afraid that it wont work out...

i like to pressure myself
even when im not able to achieve...
being so negative...
since when i became like that?