Monday, September 28, 2009

lalala...guest blogger is here today~

when i was chit chatting with my china frens,
suddenly msn msg came in, a fren of mine was totally in anger and she requested me for pinjam-ing her my blog to post about her...feelings..
so here it is...hehehe...
*seriously not me lar~*
she is my guest blogger...hahha...




I wanna blog!
Blog bout you - THE TWO-FACED DEVIL who always talk c*ck sing song and bullsh*tting around!
It's unfair to judge a person without knowing the person yet. F**k Off you B*T*H!
Thanks for all that you have done for me and that's what you called care about me!
Now i know how much you care for me till you want others to care about me as well by talking bad bout me and making others to have bad impression on me!
Thanks, because this is the way to show ppl how good you are in treating the person that "you cared most" ,
and the person whom you cared most is always treating you bad by trying to say good things bout you when others judeged you.
Oh now i know that this is the way to show your appreciation and that's why you said i don't appreciate you right,
just because i didnt tell others how bad you are in treating me instead of telling ppl how good you are.
Thanks alot.
I learned alot from you, I should tell ppl that how bad you are in treating me because this is the way to show you that i care and i appreciate for all that you've done to me.
If you're hoping for a good return please don't say that you're sincere because that makes me feel like puking in front of you.
You've acted alot, ugly bitch.
Oh the ugly truth, i should learn to accept it.
I feel like strangle you til you die and never appear in my life anymore.
How can you keep telling ppl around you that i'm treating you very bad?
what have i done that makes you think so?
just because you love me, care for me and you're expecting the same good return from me?
Is this what you call sincerity?
and if you're willingly to do, so dont complain so much.
What are you trying to do?
I really didnt know how well you can act like infront of me by keep telling me that how much you care for me and how much i meant to you while on the other hand you keep telling ppl that how bad i was?
Ppl who dont know me tends to have bad impression on me without even knowing me they can judge me that way and yeah thanks alot for spreading it continuosly.
Is that coincident that you're close to ppl who are close to me?
And even if they're close to me, what is your intention to tell others bout me and told them how bad was i?
i just dont know why and what makes you think that i treat you bad when i have already given in so much.
Even i'm close to the friend of mine and so you are, why must you always mention bout me?
and yeah my best friends all left me?
is this what you're trying to do and proof to ppl that i've some attitude problems till ppl want to leave me?
Open your eyes big enough to see whether ppl leave me or i choose to leave ppl?
I always choose to keep things to myself and keep quiet and this is what i got.
It's a descrimination to me.
It hurts to know that you think that i don't know how to appreciate you when you're around, when you're not around only i appreciate you?
i dont need you to teach me.
I appreciated you so much even b4 and after but all you know is just to blame on me.
I just don't understand why and why ppl around me who always claimed that they love and care bout me will end up doing all this to me?
i wonders why? why why?
When i always tell ppl how important you are to me, how good can you be, and this is what i deserve to get from you by telling how bad am i to others till others start to doubt me and place prejudice towards me.
If thats the case I prefer you not to love me and care for me.
i prefer you to love me like your friends.No its not up to what i decide, but why do you love me then?
whats the point of loving me then hate me? if you know you're gonna do all this to me, stay away from me.
i dont need your fake love just to show ppl how loyal can you be.
You're not at all, flirting all the way you want.
Did i ever be close to your new friends and start to talk bad bout you?
I still try to clear their doubts bout you, you know?
I just cant be as evil as you la! I surrender can?
Can you like f**k off from my life?
why is it so hard to just be friends?
why must always have to face problems like this?
why will i have friend like you? why?
i just don't understand.
I just thought that i should mend it all back and blame everything on myself to make you feel better, you dont appreciate it nevermind and i even have already not keeping in touch with you, why must you keep creating all this shits to me?
To grab my attention? i'm such a failure to not be bothered!
I hate all of you and especially you.
You're the TWO-FACED DEVIL!
How i wish to tell the whole wide world but i'm just not like you. I can't. Failure I am.
I HAVE ALREADY DISAPPEARED IN YOUR LIFE FOR LONG AND WHY MUST YOU KEEP STEPPING IN AGAIN TO MY LIFE?
ARE YOU REALLY WANTING ME TO DIE IN FRONT OF YOU AND YOU CAN OWN ME TOTALLY?
I cant be this stupid.
I must tell myself to stay strong.
I hope that i can just fall down somewhere or knock by a car so that when i wake up,
all my memory with you all can be erased and i wont be bother much bout all this shits.
I'm praying for that.
I MUST LEARN NOT TO CARE BOUT PPL LIKE HOW I USED TO CARE BOUT OTHERS cos then i will just get hurt.
I have had enough already.
Thanks!
I MUST BE HAPPY AND NOT TO GIVE UP LIFE EASILY. I MUST NOT GIVE YOU ANY CHANCE TO PROVE YOU RIGHT. THANKS!




** Thanks to cecilia to allow me to rant here! Appreciate it so much! **
** There're more to come ** gonna blog in chinese **
** Thanks in advanced first cecilia **

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