Wednesday, September 10, 2008

lalala...no mood to la actually

ok...no need to talk about yesterday...nothing special...just woke up at 1 plus and study and ended up sleep wake up sleep wake up...i dunno wat ive read actually...totally in no mood ...

den today...sejarah paper...watever lar...i dun care ad...wat i care is...i brought my fren trouble by sending her da tips ive got from fren...her fren sent her another one too...but she chose to beliv mine...but the fact is...the one her fren sent her is EXACTLY da same as da sejarah paper...everything is the SAME.....haih...so it means i caused her din know how to do her paper....as a conclusion...i suck...i shouldnt have send her...im sorry my dear....im reli reli sorry...i din mean to caused this happened...im sorry!!!T_T...

once promise broken shows tat u no longer care...why am i still putting so much hope in fact i knew tat its already came to the end?why m i still lying to myself?why m i still believe u tat u are going thru reli bad situation but wat i saw is u are now enjoying ur life so so much??why am i still care?why m i still thinking so much tat is unneccessary and take it so seriously?why m i have such a problem tat hard to let go?why cant i be like those "i-dun-care" ppl??why must i be so dam annoying??there are soooooo many questions pop up in my mind...but i still couldnt manage to get answers i want...

everything u have said to me...i still can remember...i used to joke tat i wanna die because of studies or something...den u said cannot...if not u will be lonely there without me...how sweet?(at least for me it is)...i know it was just sweet talking...but i chose to believe u...i chose to beliv tat...you reli reli needed me...but at the end..i know i was wrong...totally wrong...i tend to do things tat would make me regret...especially in relationship...i always think tat we could last..for very long..im not a joke for u as u said...but i found tat im a joke for my life...wat i say here might make u go like..."wat is wrong with her?get a life la!"(this is just an example,or perhaps an assumption..)..if reli liek tat...im sorry...but watever it is...u wont read...u wont know...dun need to "promote" for me ppl...

or maybe i shud reli get a life...wat m i doing now??i reli dunno................
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